The Dominance Of Her

PART 32 : Euphoric Escape

Prerit's POV

I barged into my room with slightly burning eyes caused by the build up emotions inside me. I widened my eyes in attempt to see things clearly. I shut the door behind letting it make a loud thud sound. My legs had no strength, they were giving up on my ability to stand. I dragged my feets towards my bed and fall on it.

My eyes closed automatically as I stretched myself on my bed.

After few minutes I realised that I was still wearing my shoes. I started toeing off my shoes while being in that position only.

An end of us?

My dumb mind felt like eating me up. Tremendous wave of thoughts felt like washing my soul away. I laid numbly on my bed. 

My throat felt like chained with spikes.  It hurted every inch of mine.
My chest was tightening up with the strange feeling inside me. I wasn't able to name it out but that feeling was causing me immense pain.

Staring deep into the ceiling with all the questions erupting inside my mind, I gulped hard, swallowing every tear inside.

We were meant to be, even if she denies that fact for a long period of time. I know I have never felt like this for any person in my whole lifetime, she is the one, she has to be the one. God was just testing us by keeping us apart for a while.

My heart was trying my best to manipulate my mind even after knowing very well that the one who would be loosing in this battle would be the heart only.

I am upset or maybe angry at her. Her silence was not letting me be in peace. I wanted to provoke her just to listen some words in her voice. I don't care even if those words rip my heart apart.

I want to exchange some words with her even if that's in the form of heated argument. Lack of our proper conversation raised the desire of crossing miles just to hear to her. Some stupid ideas were crossing my mind. One such idea was to let her hear the news of my death to atleast witness her coming for me. Her absence was turning me into a maniac. Every breath in absence of her pains my lungs.

Sweat collected all over my forehead , the idea of not feeling her presence again made me want to disappear from everyone's life. My body laid numbly, my hands quivering.

Just one effort from her to show me that she still wanna have me and i would let go of all the grudges and would forgive her for making me go through all this in these days, I will complaint to her and tell her everything when she again opens up her arm for me.

Her love, my euphoric escape.

There have been times in recent days when I have caught myself talking to her in my imagination. The imagination where everything would be back to as it was. When I would find my dear lady again in her.

The key to the door of my every desire with her was once in my hands but now it feels like slipping away, like I was knocking on that door but it was locked up for me.

Maybe I was knocking on the wrong door. But if that wrong door leads me to her I will surely beat at that door until my whole body gives up. Even a slight possibility of hers could keep me hopeful for my desire.

Universe had a law of taking that person away from you upon whom you gradually become emotionally dependent. And that's what I feared the most.

I already knew that I was emotionally dependent upon her but she was the only one to make me dependent. All these years no one confined my space
as she did in some months only.

She got inside that protective barrier.

I couldn't let go of her. She was my happiness and my only peace.