Hybrid

Chapter 31

"Nevaeh Underwood, will you marry me, Alec Lightwood?"

I blinked at Alec. "Alec?" I said his name as calmly as i could. "Yeah?" He answered back. I took a deep breath and let out a long exhale.

"ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR FREAKING MIND?!" I finally shouted at him, and he flinched. "Why would you ask me? Out of all the women that you could possibly marry, you chose me. Give me one good reason why I shouldn't hit you right now."

He stood up abruptly, "I just think that if we get married, you would be able to have the Lightwoods protection. Fully. I've seen the way my mother looks at you. I've never seen her smile towards any other girls other than you, Eva. Look, just think about it, okay? I'll leave you alone to your thoughts now."

He closed the door behind me, and I sat on my bed, thinking what the hell just happened. Alec Lightwood had just proposed to me. This is a big thing. What would Maryse think? My mother was her sister, maybe not biologically, but still. Wouldn't it be weird? I don't know what to do. I'm stuck in between the situation that just happened and the argument that Magnus had just threw straight to my face. This situation is not helping what has happened between us. We love each other. Don't we..?

I crawled to the centre of my bed and hugged my knees to my chest as I rested my head in between thinking. Very hard, mind you. What am I supposed to do? I love and care about Alec, but not until marriage came into my thoughts. A knock on my door interrupted me from my thoughts, and I looked up and saw Isabelle peeking her head inside.

"Hey Izzy.." I said and smiled softly. "You okay?" She asked me, concerned. I nodded my head and gestured her to come in. She walked inside, closing the door behind her before making her way towards me, settling herself beside me on the bed.

"You don't seem okay. Did my brother say something hurtful? I saw him walking out of your room. If he did, I can kill him for you if you want." She said seriously, and I laughed lightly before shaking my head.

"He didn't say anything hurtful. But he did something much more surprising.." I said, drawing out the last sentence, getting more nervous.

"What did he do?" She asked. I looked at her and twisted my body, so I was sitting face to face with her. "You promise not to freak out?" I asked her first before revealing the big truth that I would eventually have to tell Clary. "He proposed to me.."

Silence. That's all there was. I looked at Isabelle, and she had her mouth wide open. "Proposed as in marriage proposal? My brother proposed to you? On one knee?" She asked, shooting multiple questions straight to my face, and I just nodded my head.

"Did you say yes?" She asked again, and I shook my head. "He gave me the option to think about it. This is not an easy decision. I love and care about Alec, but not until I want to marry the guy. And Magnus.. I don't know what happened to him, but he kept on saying that Alec was his replacement. Which is not true. He was so..angry. I tried to apologise for the incident that i caused back at his place, but he completely lashed out on me. He  didn't try to hear me out - what do I do, Izzy? I don't know what to do anymore -" I rambled out, but I stopped when she grabbed my shoulders and hugged me.

"It's okay, Eva.. Why don't you try to talk to him. He's still in the institute. So you just need to talk to him, and if that doesn't work, mention the marriage towards him." She advised me. I let go of the hug and thought about the idea before nodding my head. "That could work. But do you mind if you could leave me alone for some time? I just want to rest for a bit before talking to Magnus." I said to her, and she nodded her, agreeing with me.

Once she got up and left, I lay on my back and stared up at the wall, which was covered in runes that I have never seen before but that doesn't matter as of this moment. All I thought about was Magnus. Gathering up my courage, I got back up and made my way towards the door and opened it, praying to myself that everything would turn out well.

As i rounded the institute, trying to desperately find Magnus, I finally found him and called out to him, but I got ignored. Rude.

"Magnus, wait! We need to talk." I said, and he just turned around and was waiting. "Well? What is it? I don't have time to waste it on someone who isn't important." He said, and I just looked at him in shock, not expecting him to say such a thing. Especially towards me. I'm not important to him..?

"How could you say that I'm not important to you, Magnus. Magnus, I love you!" I said to him, my voice almost cracking when I said the last sentence.

"Look, I dont know what has gotten into you, but I just wanted to apologise about me hurting you. Physically, might I add, but I do not know the reason why you lashed out on me like I'm some kind of robot that has no feelings for you to validate, but I'm not going anywhere until you tell me what it is that's bothering you. Right now." I said to him angrily and folded my arms waiting.

I waited for him to say anything, but he did the unthinkable. He turned his back on me, and I do not take gestures like that lightly. So here it goes.

"Magnus, Alec proposed to me!" I blurted out, and he stopped in his tracks. I expected him to turn back around, question me about the proposal, and tell me not to accept it because he didn't want to lose me, but he just continued walking. As if he didn't hear me talking about Alec proposing to me.

I ran towards him and blocked his path. "Magnus, please. Don't you care about me? Alec proposed to me, and i don't know what to do, so please just -"
"Marry him then."

I stopped from what I was about to say and just looked at him, shocked but hurt too. "What..?"

"Marry. Him. It seems only fair that when two shadowhunters are getting along really well and are very close to one another, they tend to be married sooner or later." He said, as a matter of factly.

"Doesn't the thought bother you?" I asked him, with tears pooling in my eyes. "Doesn't the thought of me getting married to someone else bothers you? At all?" I asked him, desperate to have an answer.

He looked me in the eye and gritted out, "Not in the least." Before walking past me, acting as if we didn't share our moments together. That we didn't kiss each other. That we didn't say 'I love you' to one another.

He acted as if i was a stranger..

Not willing to bear the pain any longer, I ran towards Isabelle's room and knocked on her door. Her door opened, and I finally let my tears fall.
She looked at me, and her eyes softened as if she knew what happened and hugged me, caressing my hair to comfort me.

"What happened, sweetheart?" She asked softly. "He didn't c-care that i got proposed and treated me like i was some s-stranger.. Izzy, it hurts.." I cried out and hugged her more tighter.

She guided me inside her room, and I sat on her bed with her still holding me, comforting me. After a few moments, she let me lay in her bed to relax myself and left the room. Once she saw I was settled in her bed, she left the room heading back to the lab when I convinced her to do so.

Not long after, I felt myself drift to sleep, and I let it consume me. I've had enough of today's events...