"You can kiss a hundred boys in bars,"
Vega was back in the kitchen after eating their 'brunch', throwing away their paper plate and then cleaning their eating utensil, being eeriely silent.
"Too many times.. too many.. Maybe I'm just insecure.."
"No not maybe.. I AM insecure.."
"Shoot another shot, try to stop the feeling,"
"I don't think I could ever talk to you again.. not because I don't want to but because I'd just fall in love again and you'd probably not feel anything for me.."
"But it's ironic.."
Vega sighed heavily and covered their face with their hands, trying to stop their internal ramblings.
"Shut up.. please and thank you.."
"You can say it's the way you are,"
"Maybe I'm just meant to be and feel this way.. Insane and alone.."
"I really just wanna stop thinking.. it's draining and physically upsetting me.. I'm upsetting myself!.."
They slowly removed their hand from their face and shook their head, rubbing their head afterwards. Vega slowly left the couch and went into the livingroom, picking Daisy up from the couch and going into their room.
Setting Daisy down on the bed, they closed the door afterwards and laid down with their feline friend.
"C'mon... Please stay and lay down with me.. Stop being so unloving!"
"Make a new excuse, another stupid reason,"
"I don't want to keep making stupid excuses just to talk to you.. "roleplaying", "let's start out as friends, "strangers".. IT DRIVES ME CRAZY!.. I hate it! I hate it so much.. Why can't I just be happy with you?.."
Vega sighed heavily, pulling the blanket over themself and curling up, feeling Daisy has finally decided to settle down by his legs.
"They just stupid reasons.."
"Good luck, babe (well, good luck), well, good luck, babe (well, good luck),"
Vega laid on their side, staring at the alarm clock on the bedside table and watching the minutes tick by ever so painfully slow.
"I don't even want to look at my phone anymore.. the thought of you showing up fills me with anxiety.. but I'm not scared.."
"You'd have to stop the world just to stop the feeling,"
Zoning out and continuing to stare at the alarm clock, Vega's heart started to pound as thoughts raced through their mind.
"I don't want to stop loving you!.. it would feel like a betrayal... It would hurt me more than it could ever hurt you!.. I could never stop loving you..."
Everything was starting to blur together now.
"Good luck, babe (well, good luck), well, good luck, babe (well, good luck),"
"I'm scared for my safety.. I shouldn't be left alone by myself..."
Vega hugged themself, not knowing what to do since they vowed not to touch their phone.
"I'll just be addicted again.. I won't be able to shut down.."
"You'd have to stop the world just to stop the feeling,"
"I'm scared about what will happen if I stop loving you.. I'm terrified at the thought of you showing up in my messages again just to brag about having a new boy.. and then putting that boy on with his bad grammar just to insult me and block me again.. I'M SCARED..."
Squeezing their eyes shut in hopes to fall asleep and calm down, Vega laid still and held back their tears. Whimpering quietly as it felt like torture to spend the rest of their life alone and feeling abandoned.
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"Good Luck, Babe!"
FanfictionI really like this song by Chappel Roan. Warning!: This is a vent book and how I perceive this song! Enjoy if you can, I'm not good at writing or proofing, probably will be a short story 1 Chapter = 1 Verse Cover Art by Astrid. And Astrid if you're...
