hiii everyoneee.
so not much happened today tbf like i stayed off school again cause i'm like too scared to go. had some soup ofc because fuck yes. but like i get this same situation that happened pissing me off every single day now right. and i can't say it cause they'll see it but it drives me insane. anywho, i obviously wrote another chapter for the fanfic cause bill and ivy are my fucking fav couple omds.
started listening to lana del rey more again cause i love this era of me rn. like listening to her, pissing teachers off at school just cause of my anxiety and they don't wanna deal with me, then going home and coming on here ykk. like writing is genuinely one of my fav things ever. ALSO for those of you who want a face rev, i'll do it if we get to 222 followers okayy (idk i have a weird obsession with angel numbers) WOOO GUESS JUST CAME ON MY PLAYLIST. anywho! i told my "bsf" i hate men earlier and istg she's convinced i don't like men (i'm bi but she's judgy so i don't wanna say it) but like i like guys still ofc but like they scare me lowkey. dk why but i hate being in a room with like male teachers and shit it freaks me out. omfg i printed out loads of posters earlier and now pennywise can watch me get ready every day! (as well as jaeden martell and finn wolfhard cause they're like my new husbands icl) no why is having actors as celebrity crushes so much better than like youtubers and shit cause i watch IT like multiple times a week for them yk. plus it's my comfort movie too cause it makes me feel like a have a friend group and shit (excuse how that sounds so sad but i've got like nobody irl) NO STOP so tomorrow my dads calling the doctors right, and it's cause of my anxiety, i've definitely got body dysmorphia or something and we're tryna get me tested or wtv for it and i'm giving off low iron vibes rn too like whenever i stand up too fast and shit i lowkey die. and idk whether this is related but my heart randomly feels like i'm getting stabbed sometimes it's done it for like years but idk i've got mad health anxiety and it scares me.
omds no and about me falling up the stairs earlier right. so i was like running up as i do, and then i tripped up and like smacked my arm on the banister and like slid down slightly, then went upstairs and smacked my hand on the bathroom door. does the world not fucking like me or smt 😭
right that's all for today tbf i'll give you lot a pic again tho.
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ok if you know me from school and found me somehow respectfully i don't give a shit go start rumours abt me my life is bad enough already 🤗
okay love you all chat
