okokok what the fuck was today. so i stayed up until like 3 cause i haven't been sleeping well lately which is always fun (i refuse to take my melatonin too!) and then woke up late and literally did not wanna get out of bed. like i just led there for ages and my dad kept tryna get me up but i just lowkey ignored him. i feel bad for doing it but like i was genuinely so scared about going to school.
but luckily he just gave up so i didn't have to get ready yk. so he left to go take my brother to school and i got dressed into this sweater i've had for years like it has mad lore and is lowkey falling apart but some blind old lady made it or smt and it's been my comfort sweater for years so like yeah yk. then i just tidied up my room and wrote some more for my fanfic cause it's literally my favourite thing to do right now. then i went downstairs and tidied up for my mum cause i'm such a good child!
anywho i basically just chilled for the whole day which is cute. then had my shower or whatever and got into my pajamas at like 4pm cause it's my second favourite thing to do at the moment like being in bed early is so UGHH. then i was just led in bed forever listening to music cause why the fuck not. then i got some dodgy texts off my bsf.
so apparently my ex bsf was asking where i was and went like "where's sofia that two faced bitch" and my bsf was like "excuse me?" and then my ex bsf was like "am i wrong?" so like that's something. for context with my ex bsf like she would constantly make fun of me and how i looked and was actually just a bitch. so like we eventually fell out cause she said something about my bsf loosing weight and i was lowkey more bothered than her about it but like tf you mean it looks like you've lost weight but in a good way then you send a ss of her pfp? why the fuck does it concern you! ofc i went off on her cause i had enough of it all.
AND GUESS WHAT? she goes and becomes bsfs with some bitches she made fun of! makes sense right! and then my bsf texted me saying she nearly kissed my old crush that led me on and lowkey ruined me which was uh quite shocking to hear. like wdym he got pushed into you and was just staring into your eyes for ages. uhm. bit pissed off about that especially since she's getting close with my other crush too! so like erm. this is why i'm done with being delusional over people cause ik i'm not pretty enough!
what makes it worse is i checked my nsfs reposts and she reposted something like "tag someone so pretty they could go viral if they posted" and she tagged her bsf she chats shit about! i'm actually hurt like nice to know you don't think i'm pretty enough! like she always listens to me talk about my body dysmorphia and is just like "help". yes good job, help is what i need! like it's so bad i'm getting help from the doctors for it soon! yay!
anyways i'm looking for more friends rn cause like wtf is my life!
time to go scream deja vu cause i'm still not okay over a past relationship 😋
okay as a little present for reading here's a pic!
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