HEYYY ANGELSS
right so it's 12:56 rn and i'm listening to every single fucking reneé rapp song ever cause omfg why didn't i listen to her before. anywho i'm pissed off w my irl friends rn like i haven't been in school since monday and not a single one of them has asked where i am or if i'm okay. so i leave the gc w my main "bsf" (let's call her door- idek) and she hasn't texted me asking why or anything yet. and didn't text me at all today which is fun! honestly i'm giving up on everyone irl like the minute i get my school moved or sent to this other thingy i'm ghosting and unadding everyone from that hellhole. like idgaf anymore.
another thing i wanna vent about is a situation i fucked up in. not a day goes by when i don't think about it or want it back the way it was. but it's too late now and i can't do anything about it but i just miss the way it was and it's still not the same with me and someone. it just hurts because i was trying to be dry and not talk as much because i was scared and my friends were judging me for being in that relationship. and i was scared of what they thought so i ruined it. but like a few weeks after it happened i started regretting it and i don't even know where it came from but i hate myself for ruining it all. like there's so much i wanna say but i can't do it.
also why the fuck did my airbuds recap roast me and say i had basic white girl music. like okay i apologise i'm a basic white girl what do you want me to do, fucking start speaking french? i can but like that's not the point yk.
idek that's all for today!
