That's The Way Love Goes (on-going)

T.W.L.G. - Wounds of Hatred

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oh just finished my 1st chapter so how is it?? please give me some honest feedback and suggestions its my pleasure... thank you!!!!!!!!

xoxo - parika_01

T.W.L.G. part 2

I stand up and walk away the bed with blanket covering my body to the bathroom.

how... what will I say to my mom if she finds out??my family?? how about my friends??

headache.

nakakahiya.. sobrang nakakahiya. and above all of this hapened.

NO ONE CAN UNDERSTAND ME.

I am a dirty slut.

I am a trash!!! oh.. or I should say im worthless. hindi na ako ung tipong, dapat igalang ng mga lalake.

I stand still in the mirror of the bathroom, I saw some kissmarks on my chest part and neck. , I felt something on my waist, down to my legs, to knees.. that I cannot explain just... PAINFUL.. feeling ko nanginginig sya. my breasts swells. so much pain in my abdomen... it hurts so bad. it feels like, someone is pulling my internal abdomen apart.... I'm like a whore already. this body... nakakasuka. wala na kong pagmamalaki... I'm literally tired...

"hey are'nt you going!!?? I'm waiting."-ace

"I'm sorry, I'm coming" then I walk silently towards him.

I feel the shame in myself as we walk through the corridor of that place. It is the same situation as we entered in that place.. mas sobra ang hiyang nramadaman ko.. dahil alam kong may nangyari... yes. IT HAPPENED, but anong mggawa ko ngyri na. malapit na ang exit..

i must hurry.. before anyone sees us na magkasama sa ganitong lugar.....

"pwede ba candice? can you just walk beside me??!! bakit ba nagmamadli ka"

"ace sorry but nahihiya ako baka may makakita pa sa atin dito" I walk still in a hurry...

''youre just being paranoid!! ang dami mong arte ha" Ace shouted.

paranoid??? maarte?? can you just imagine what you just did to me?? I am so exhausted.

we are far from that hell... we are on the roadside now.. my heart slowly rest from beating too fast.

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while we are on our way home

I have ask him a thousand times:

"Ace, am I pregnant??? mbubuntis ba ako??"

ace "nope"

"but I'm scared, I don't know what to do if---"

ace- "can't you just stop asking?! its annoying!"

"I-Im sorry"

"just trust me ok? if not then get lost"

here he comes again. he never talked to me like that. my heart started again to burst out in my anger....

"hey! excuse me? did you just fckn forget that you just get what you wanted a while ago??!!!!!"

ace- "you shut your mouth!!! because nothing will happen!!!!!!''

my tired eyes started to loose tears again... like waterfalls... It hurts like piercing heart my face heated up like im having a fever.

"can't you just comfort me??!! Im suffering a lot, my mind is tortured in thinking what to if-!!!!!"

he hold my hand tightly...