More Than What You See

Lovers' Weekend Break

It feels so good to be on the road with Jon as we drive to our getaway destination for the weekend. Just the two of us. I was originally planning on just staying the one night but both Jon and Jordan persuaded me to stay for two nights as I have been worried about Nina. She's still not right. "Isn't she beautiful?" I jerk out of my thoughts when I notice Jon pointing at the little log cabin laid in front of us. "Wow!" I feel his calloused fingers grip my chin. "Promise me that you'll just focus on us and enjoy our weekend getaway?" His gaze showing no signs of judgement, only concern and hope. "I'll try, babe. I can't help but worry about her." He looks slightly resigned but I can tell he's trying not to and his expression is making me feel guilty. "... but I'll do my utmost to enjoy this romantic weekend. We deserve this time to ourselves and have some debauchery time together!" I wink. I smirk when he laughs.

Once I've climbed out of the car, I stop to take in my surroundings. We'd already checked in at reception so now we are parked outside our cute little lodge. I spot the hot tub in the corner and spin round checking to see how private it really is. I have no doubt that we could have some steamy fun in the tub.
I follow Jon with our bags as he unlocks the door to the lodge and all I hear is him cursing out loud. I nearly bump into the back of him as he's stood with his mouth open. "Holy..." I swallow my spit at how stunning it is in here. Jon takes the bags from me and places them on the side board by the bed. "All this just for us two, babe! What do you want to do first?" I hear over to the tiny kitchen area, if you can call it that. It's just a sink, a hot stove with a little fridge. Glancing through the few cupboards, there's a couple of pans, crockery, kettle and utensils to use the barbecue. "Fancy doing a little shop in that store by the reception?" I throw the suggestion out to Jon who's busy gazing through the small windows.

The pair of us quickly put the groceries away in limited storage units and once we pour a glass of wine at the little dining table. "All we can do now is relax and enjoy ourselves. Forget about the rest of the world for the first time ever." For some reason, Jon's little statement pisses me off and I get up to go outside. Not wanting to get into an argument, I focus on trying to set up the barbecue grill. "What's gotten into you, sexy?!" I feel his minty breath on the back of my neck as he wraps his arms around my chest. "Nothing." Then I quietly mumble "yet. Maybe I should get into you for a change!" My eyes automatically close as the feel of his hand cups my crotch. I sigh when he squeezes harder. "Phee, what's up? You're suddenly all pissed off and wound up tightly." I take a deep breath while I clear my head. "What did you mean by what you said; for the first time ever?!" He clears his throat. "It didn't mean anything babe. We've had so much going on, it's nice that we can focus on just one another for a few days." I spin on the spot. Looking straight into his eyes. "Don't make a joke out of the shit that's been happening, Jonathan. That girl is my best friend. I'm sorry that I've not been as focused on us, you and me but I will not act like everything is hunky dory when it isn't. She's also your brother's girlfriend. So be mindful of what you make jokes about. It's taken a hell of a lot for us to get to this point with her, by us I mean me and your brother, mostly. This is the first time I've been far away from her since all the crap began with the fans, so excuse me for not laughing at the stupid insensitive joke." Upon finishing my sentence, I turn back round to light the grill. I hear him cursing. We remain in silence for a few minutes at least. Then his footsteps walking away tell me he's gone back inside the lodge. I begin to ask myself questions such as; did I overreact, guilt trip the man I love unnecessarily or am I justified? One thing I hate is arguing with Jon. I stay Leaning against the grill as I let the feelings run wild in my body. "Is Nina okay? Yeah. He/we're worried about her. That's good bro! Oh hey honey, sounds like you're having fun?! Ha hah okay well I'll leave you both to it. Okay I'll tell him that. Love ya too." I feel him gingerly wrap his arms around me from behind. "I'm so sorry baby. I should have been more sensitive and considerate with my words. I don't think sometimes. Is there anything I can do to make up for being a stupid idiot?"

I hold my breath as his fingers trace their round to my crotch. I look down to see where he's now cupping me. His hardness is suddenly against my backside. Deciding I don't want to spend the entire weekend at each other's throats... the image of us sucking on both of our necks distracts me for a moment before narrowing my trail of thought back.... The last thing Jon deserves is having a shitty boyfriend even if he deserves to be punished in some way. I swallow as I begin to think of ways to punish him that both of us would enjoy.

After we clear out the pots from our cheese burgers and cleaning up the barbecue grill, we head to the bed area. I thrown down one of the cushions and point to where it lands on the floor,"Strip. Then get to your knees, Jon." He nods and follows my instructions. I gently caress the side of his handsome face. Without a word, I watch as he undresses. He may not be built in the same way as Jordan but I definitely find myself licking my lips as my gaze roams his body. I unzip my pants, slowly. "You ready for this?" I run my spare hand through his mop of hair. "Yes, Phoenix. I need to show you how sorry I am." I nod down at him as I pull myself free. I tap his lips with my tip then I fist myself a few times before I push it into his waiting mouth. I nearly lose myself when our eyes connect, damn, I've never seen anything so incredible than this right now.

Tonight is my turn to be dominant and especially seeing as Jon is working hard to make it up to me for being an insensitive jerk earlier. I spend a while edging him until he gets to the point of begging for me. There's a whole of cursing and filthy words being spouted between the two of us. To see him squirming and begging for me is a beautiful sight. The way he's giving himself to me touches my heart. This is the man that I know I have fallen in love with. I try to blink back my tears at the realisation of my feelings for this incredible human being but he must sense my sudden trepidation as he says the safe word that we had agreed upon during our first time of BDSM. Immediately, I untie him from the bedposts. He holds my face in his hands staring across at me. "What's going on honey?" I take a deep breath. "This isn't just a bit of fun for me Jonathan, not anymore..." He starts kissing me at different points on my face before settling on my lips. "I'm in love with you too Phoenix. I knew it from the first moment I laid my eyes on you. It's okay, you can say it too. I'm scared too but it's so freaking exciting!" I chuckle whilst letting a lone tear fall. "I'm madly in love with you Jonathan Knight." We spend the rest of the night making love, full of tenderness and togetherness.