street Artist x Secretly a idol! | pjsk au | akikasa | Another Love

struggling feeling

Saturday (that night)

Akito pov

🥞"I home."
🎨"Welcome back you're late we already finish dinne-"
🥞"Yeah uh I going to my room"
🎨"Why your face all red?"
🥞"Shut up!"
🎨"Oi wait!"
I rushed up to my room and slammed the door on ena face. I jump on my bed and cover my face with my hand
...

Flashbacks

I slowly woke up and I saw that I was laying on tsukasa lap. I wanted to panic but tsukasa was also asleep.. I shouldn't wake him up but this is embarrassing.. lucky there's no one around
I look at tsukasa sleeping expression he's seems so.. cute I guess. I slowly reach out my hand to his face then I noticed he's been crying. Why was he crying?
Tsukasa slowly open his eyes
⭐"Huh? Oh akito you're wak-.. u-uhh why are you touching my face.."
🥞"Have you been.. crying..?"
⭐"Wh-what of course no! I don't cry"
🥞"Most obvious lie I ever heard"
I move my hand careful touching the side of his eyes.. suddenly I realized what I doing I pulled away quickly and got up from his lap
🥞"S-sorry!! I didn't mean to.."
⭐"Uh.. i-its fine.."
🥞"But uh.. if you're feeling sad j-just tell me.."
⭐"D-dont worry I fine.."
🥞"Haha..o-okay.-"
The awkward silent started to kick in.. shit say something akito.
🥞"I gotta go now! Bye"
⭐"Uh..- okay.."

Flashbacks end

Damn it my face feel so warm and all I was about to hit my face when suddenly tsukasa crossed my mind. Why am I like this.. no I have to overcome this feeling otherwise I won't focus on my dream
But why is he so..

Sunday

🎧"Woohoo let's focus on practice!"
🐹"Mhm I fired up today!"
🎧"That's the spirit!!"
☕"How you feeling akito?"
🥞"Pretty well I slept well last night"
☕"That's great but you still take it easy today"
🥞"Yeah yeah don't worry I'll just watch you guys practice today"
🎧"Hehe alright then let's go kohane"
🐹"Mhm sure"
I watch as An and kohane walk off to practice while toya was still here
🥞"You can go join them if you want"
☕"Are you sure?"
🥞"Yeah you need practice too.."
☕"Alright rest well"
🥞"Thanks"
I ate some pancakes and watches them sing how tiring.. sooner or later they'll might improve more than me.. no. I gotta stop thinking like this
Hmm I wonder what tsukasa is doing.. oh my god hoshi is live!!
I checked my phone to see what they interviewed about him
🌟"Haha yeah I am a huge crybaby"
Girl A"wow I didn't you were so sensitive!! Alright here another question what was the longest relationship you ever have??"
🌟"Well I have been in a multiple relationship the longest I have was.. hmm probably with kamishiro"
Girl A"ouhh so are you saying you're single right now??"
🌟"Pretty much!"
Girl A"so do you have someone in mind??"
🌟"Hehe yeah there's someone in my mind they been on my mind ever since they first confronted me"
Girl A"wow they would be so lucky"
🌟"Who wouldn't wanna be lucky to date someone like me☆☆"
Girl A"so are you gonna make a move?"
🌟"Hehe we'll see what happens tonight"
Girl A"there you have it folk!! That's all for our interview for now"
For some reason I felt a little heartbroken because hoshi have someone on his mind
No matter.. I just wanna be worthy of his presence. That's all

🎧"Yo akito"
🥞"Hm?"
An, toya and kohane approach to me slowly and smiling
🥞"Uh why are guys slowly walking towards me"
🐹"Hehe we got something for you"
🥞"Okay?"
☕"Actually it's from tenma"
🥞"Tsukasa got me something?"
🎧"Mhm he asked to gave it to you yesterday"
🥞"What is it?"
An gave me a envelope and I open it up it was.. a hoshi concert ticket??
I gasp excitedly
🥞"VIP??? TICKETT AHHSSO"
I jump around like a little kid happily and then I stopped because everyone was looking at me
🎧"Pfft"
☕"Akito look happy"
🐹"Awh I think it's cute to see jumping like a little kid"
🎧"Hahaha yeah"
I can't believe tsukasa got me this vip tickets! How did he even get it awh well this is too good hmm I check the ticket and it's say "you can't bring anyone else but you got a special room just for you" I should dressed up for this occasion! I felt so excited that I forgot about my negative thought

Sunday (that evening)

So this is the place? Where is everyone else? I must be early I went inside and it's was so fancy thankfully I was wearing a suit and tied since the ticket told me to hm
There was a table and candle on the center of the room uhh
🥞"What kind of vip is this?"
Hm should I sit down?
Suddenly a door open from the other side and I was flabbergasted on who walked in it was hoshi..
🌟"Good evening.. sit down with me"
He walked to the table and sat down expecting me to sit down aswell
🥞"I-..uh"
I sat down nervously.. we were face to face is this like a date..
He's aura is amazing. It felt so warm and lovely I felt so flustered I try so hard to avoid his eye contact but no matter where I look I couldn't helped to feel his gaze on me..
🌟"Tell me about yourself akito shinonome♡"
🥞"H-how do y-you know my name.."
🌟"That's a secret ⁠~⁠♪ "
My heart was beating fast by each sentence he talked
🌟"You don't have to be so shy!! Isn't it amazing that you get to have a date with me?"
🥞"A date!?"
I stood up shockingly from what he said.. no this isn't right I haven't even made it in studio v
I don't deserve this right now!
🥞"Ah sorry but I think I should leave!!"
🌟"Huh? Wait!"
I turn around and runs

Where am I? The balcony? Wait this isn't a concert place.. this is a house.. maybe a mansion
🌟"There you are☆ don't try to jump off silly"
Oh crap he's here.. what do I do it seems like I couldn't escape as he approached slowly at me I hid my face and look away from him
🌟"You know you're lucky to be here tonight"
🥞"I.. uh th-thats great.."
🌟"Hey don't be so nervous"
Suddenly I felt someone hug me from behind it was hoshi.. he was warm and smell like strawberry.. I felt myself heating up as I find myself breathing heavily
🌟"Hey I was wondering if you saw my interview this morning"
🥞"Ye-yeah m-maybe.."
🌟"About that.. the person I was mentioned well.. it was you"
🥞"?!?"
Hoshi let me go and took a step Abit.. I turn and face him. So he like me..?
I look at him in shock
🌟"Right now.. please accept my love.."
My body felt like it's moving on it own as I grab him gently leaning in Abit.. in the moment it felt like nothing else matters.. my dream.. my passion nothing matter anymore
I stopped myself before our lips touch. I Pull away from him. Tsukasa..
🥞"Sorry."

🌟"Huh?"
Hoshi has a shock face expression I look down disappointedly
🥞"I can't accept your love."
🌟"Why..?"
🥞"I have eyes for someone else. Sorry"
🌟"Oh. I see."
I left without saying a word I didn't know what to do with myself why have I reject hoshi. I know that I do have feeling for him but I have even more feeling for someone else's. I walk into the streets it started rain heavyly I hope this doesn't upset him so much.. I'm sure it's just the ticket that hoshi wanna date and not actually me.. if anyone else could get the vip tickets then hoshi would probably confess his love to them as well.
Sighed.

It doesn't matter anyways.

Hoshi pov

Hm. I got rejected. I never been rejected before.. it felt pain but It make me wanna love him more☆ the way he rejected me.. the serious look on he's face.. oh I love it so much.. I wanna see his face when he's in pain.. it would look so.. so.. beautiful. He'll be mine.