Love letters: Starchaser one-shots

I loved You, even when you literally ripped me apart and took my soul

Regulus had to kill James because of the war, but they were very much in love(especially James, with his unhealthy Regulus obsession).

Love letter vibes, except the writer has already passed away.

Very short shot, not really what I was planning, but I couldn't write this any other way.

This was also to my very gay wife (The regulus to my James) that didn't want me to kill James.

Also, please tell me if I wrote something wrong :)

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I told you I would die for you, my love, and I am a man of word.

Many called me crazy, including you, but what could I have done?I loved you so much that I left myself at your mercy.At the palm of your hands, for you to use, crumble, destroy and shape me as you wish.

And you did just that.

Reg, I loved you so much, and still do actually.Even when you literally ripped me apart, took my heart and soul, stabbed and made me bleed until I didn't have any more blood to spit out.

My insides saw what they weren't supposed to, the 'outside world', the moon light , but they were also there to see your pretty face covered in a deep shade of red, and for some really strange reason, I find that sickeningly attractive.

I like to imagine you were smiling while seeing my guts, even tho I know it wasn't like that, because I wouldn't want for you to be sad.Never.You deserve everything good that has left in this world.Even so I am dead and you were the murder, I wish you the best.

You suffered so much in your life.So much.

Most couldn't at least see you as a boy, and what a shame, honestly, because you were the most handsome and loving man ever.

And I like to think that at some time, that amazing boy was mine just as much as I was his.

And Regulus, I know you also loved me, that's why you were the one who sended me to a better place.

This war took everything we had left, and we didn't even have much to begin with.It took us apart along with my dream to have a kid together, I even had a name, Harry.Not really sure what you would feel about it, I didn't have time to ask you my love.

Now that I think about it, it was kind of funny that I gave my life to you, even before the war.Not that it was very healthy of me, but you were like a god to me, I could've worshiped you every single second of every single day until the universe ended.

I would've offered myself to you, wishing to be at your feet and under your control.Covering you with wine, kisses and adoration.

God, I loved you so much.

And if it wasn't for this stupid war, I could have done that for longer.But no, you had to be a death eater to save everyone, including your brother.

You should have been selfish and egocentric, instead of trying to help.But I understand why you did everything and why I had to die at that time.

Even though I don't believe I was truly that Important to the dark lord and his followers, and I also don't get why he wanted me, especially, dead, I appreciate that you were the one left with the job to end me.

At least I ended this miserable life with you, bleeding in your arms.

That night, covered by the moon's light, I sneaked out to see you, even with everyone saying I shouldn't ever see you again, because it wasn't really that much of a secret that my life was coming to an end, but I will never regret that decision.

I went to our favorite spot, the astronomy tower, and you were already there, looking at the stars, probably admiring the constellations.

You looked so fine with that black formal shirt, and with that slick hair that always made me feel butterflies in my stomach.

You were also wearing my favorite rings and one single snake earring, the one I gave you on our first date.It made me think of you every time I passed by the store window, so the only logical conclusion was to buy it as a gift for you.

But most importantly, Reg, you were literally my everything while we kissed for the last time.

And you eventually stabbed me, while we were still linked by the mouth.And It felt like the world outside us stopped for a long moment, until all I could see was black and all I could hear were you slowly whispering my name.

Over and over.

Again and Again.

"James"

"James"

"James"

"James"

"James"

"My love"

And then, a silent void took over and I knew that my time had passed.

I love you Reg.

Thank you for everything.

Hope someday you somehow find out that all I wanted was to have a family with you.

Please take care of Sirius, he loves you just as much as I did.

With all love, your humble servant (the love of your life), James.

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