Au'jaeuh Johnson
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I'm in Mexico with Kenan for USA basketball. He made the roster, so I'm here with him. We're also here to have a good time too.
We both need it.
I've been gone for three weeks now. I haven't talked to any of my family either. My momma called a few times when I first left, but that's it.
Aunt Mani and my grandma did too.
I'm not answering nobody because all they're gonna do is ask where I'm at. It shouldn't matter where I'm at or what I'm doing.
I got a new phone and new number too, so they can't get in contact if they wanted.
I leave Mexico in two days, and I'm going back to Baton Rouge. Ain't no way ma kick me out, but forgot I got a apartment in Baton Rouge.
Oh, okay.
I'm planning to stay there until I find an apartment somewhere else. Me and Kenan is planning to move to Texas.
Ma can think she's smarter than me all she want. I'm gonna show her better than I can tell her.
I don't need her for nothing.
This lady is waiting on me to come running back, and I'm not giving her that satisfaction. I got shit figured out on my own, and I got Kenan.
That's all I need.
My momma ain't do nothing, but they come as a package. Ain't no need for me to talk to her either, but I do feel tension towards her.
The tension is because of the baby incident. She sided with ma, which she's not wrong for. It's about their actions and delivery, not the situation itself.
Ma kicking me out just put the icing on shit.
Yes, I'm still angry about the baby situation. I'm gonna always feel a way, I don't care. Nobody can make me feel different because I had to experience it.
So no, I'm not gonna brush it under the rug. I'll be coldhearted too, that's fine.
I hate them.
"Don't wake up acting stupid" Kenan spat out while opening the curtains, "I'm tryna have a good day"
"You have a good day everyday"
"Ain't have one yesterday" I eyed him and just held a blank stare
"Oh"
"Oh" he responded before I rolled my eyes
"You saying don't wake up with a attitude, but you bringing up something from yesterday. I'm perfectly fine, I don't have no attitude"
"You do"
"I don't"
"You got a tone"
"Alright" I shrugged and sighed, "I don't wanna argue with you, Kenan"
"I ain't tryna argue with you, you know I ain't doing the back and forth shit. I'm just saying, it's a new day so keep that negative energy"
"I just woke up"
"With negative energy"
"How?" I asked in confusion
"I just told you we finna go get breakfast. What you say back?" I sighed and just put my head down, "What you say?"
"I don't give a fuck cause I ain't going" I recited my words, "I'll order food to come here"
