Deadpool x Wolverine (will include one shots and short storys)

Pain (Angst)

TW: Suicide mentions swearing
Also, I'm unsure if this Angst is good or not

Something Logan didn't know about Wade is that from the amount of pain he's always in 24/7, he constantly tries to off himself in secret. He knew if Logan found out he'd go feral.

Wade would kill himself in new different ways every time, like poisoning himself or sticking a fork in an active toaster.

He would always make sure to lock himself in his room and check that Logan was gone before it every time until one day he got caught....

Wade was sulking on the couch just thinking about Vanessa and trying to find a new, refreshing way to off himself when it hit him! He hasn't jumped off the building yet. How did it take him that long to think about it?

Wade looked around the house, checking if Logan was home. He wasn't, so he left the apartment and pulled himself up the stairs to the roof.

He opened the door to the roof and walked to the edge. He looked down the building and saw the streets were dark and empty as the moon shone over it all. He was about to jump when he heard a voice yell at him and footsteps tapping towards him

"WADE!"

He ignored it and jumped, but his arm got grabbed, and he swung to the buildings outer wall with a thud.

"WADE WHAT THE FUCK?!"

Wade looked up and saw Logan holding his arm with a horrified look on his face, Logans grip was tight and the only thing that stopped him from free falling.

Logan pulled him up onto the roof and let him go, and Wade was just staring at him in fear. He didn't want this to happen. He wasn't meant to know about this.

"I, I," Wade choked out in between sobs as he looked over the edge again. Logan grabbed his arm again. "Don't do it," He growled out.

Wade turned back to face Logan as he pushed his arm off. Logans eyes scanned his face as he realized that Wade's eyes were glistening as tears slowly poured out.

"I'm s-so sorry Logan," Wade sobbed out as he stared down at the ground.

Logan flinched when he heard him say his name and not some dumb nickname.

"Y-you weren't meant t-to find out about this," Wade stuttered out.

Logan wasn't paying attention from his panic and didn't notice Wade was backing up until the last second.

He was about to fall

Logan snapped out of his trance and grabbed a handful of Wade's shirt. He was leaning back, and Logan was leaning forward, looking at Wade's tear covered face.

Wade's arms were limp at his side, but he slowly dragged them up Logans back, holding on tight.

Logan pulled Wade back onto his feet and let go of Wade's shirt, Wade by then had his cold, shaky hands moved to the back of Logans neck.

Logan was surprised when Wade pulled him down and brought him to his lips, kissing him passionately.

Logan eventually gave in to the kiss and put his hands on Wade's waist, pulling him closer.

Wade pulled away, still crying as he started talking. "I-it doesn't matter how many times I t-try it never helps"

"Wait, what did you just say?" Logan questioned.

"What?"

"You've done this more than once?!" Logan yelled, and Wade eyes widened in fear as he pulled away

"IM SORRY I KNOW I MAKE EVERYTHING WORSE!" Wade yelled out as he tried to shuffle to the edge without Logan noticing

Logan was shocked as Wade continued, "I KNOW YOU WISH THAT EVERYTHING I TRY WOULD WORK!" He cried out

Logan grabbed Wade and kissed him again. "Dont do this anymore," Logan mumbled into Wade's ear

Logan grabbed his arm and pulled him back inside, and went downstairs to the apartment.

Logan put him down on the couch and sat down next to him

"Tell me when you first did it,Wade," He growled, he then realized his tone might seem threatening but he couldn't bear to say 'please' to Wade, but then again he's been killing himself multiple times and he has to get to the bottom of it

"Please," Logan reluctantly said.

Wade eyes shot up and scanned his face. He sighed and started talking.

"Well, it all started when Ness left me. It was a big change, and..... with all the chronic pain I was in all the time, I started cutting my wrists, which even though they healed instantly, it felt good and in some twisted way, the pain from the stabs were better then the mental and chronic pain" Wade revealed and Logan was shocked and was terrified when Wade kept going.

"Eventually, the pain from the cutting wasn't enough for me, and what was the next thing that popped into my mind that was better?" Wade asked Logan

"Killing yourself...." Logan whispered in horror, his eyes blown wide and jaw on the floor

"Bingo!" Wade chuckled as if everything he was saying is funny."I started killing myself in different ways just to feel something more than some stupid little stabs first was sticking a fork in the toaster, never forget your first" Wade grinned at his small joke.

Logan was absolutely horrified "What the actual fuck Wade!? This isn't something to laugh about! This is serious. Killing yourself is NOT something to joke about,"

Wade's eyes widened, and Logan rested his hand on Wade's knee, rubbing his thumb over the scarred flesh.

Wade didn't know what to say in the moment and frantically grabbed Logans face and kissed him. Despite his frantic movements, the kiss was soft. They were being tender with each other as if they were fragile and could be hurt.

Logan pulled away, and his gaze danced over Wade's face before he hugged Wade wrapping his arms around his back and holding tight.

Wade was taken aback at the sudden gesture but hugged back digging his face into Logans shoulder.

*about 4 weeks later*

Logan and Wade are officially dating, and thanks to Logan, Wade is now going to therapy to talk about his suicidal thoughts that he can never achieve.

***

It's been ages since Wade got caught almost jumping off the roof, and he is so happy it happened because now it earned him a better lifestyle and an extremely hot boyfriend

After months of treatment with his therapist, he finally stopped trying to kill himself in masochist ways.

And finally, the pain is gone

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