Not safe for the Heart

♥️Chapter 11 ♥️

Hi readers, I am still in exam season so it has been so hard to get some time to update. Even though I think about this story all the time, I know many of you have waited so long for this xx
As always I will try my best!

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Of all the scenarios Sloane thought of, this was one he never expected to be in. He thought a little push would help Seth realise something. He hoped he wouldn't be the one to say it out loud.

Because what if he was wrong? What if Sloane only got caught up in the series of beautiful moments between them? What if there was nothing further than what Seth had allowed.

The shadows always knew where to find you, and Sloane felt like he was being suffocated in all his over thinking. The thought of anyone taking the role as Seth's secretary and them being in this position. Because Seth was kind, a beautiful man and a caring dominant. Anyone, would have agreed to all his demands. Maybe that person wouldn't even cause such a problem. Because he was a problem. Sloane was the one error in Seth's Master plan.

It was painful to even swallow the idea that he had been dancing alone in this dream. He didn't want to believe he was the only one swept away in all this because he cannot return from the heights of his feelings. Every acre of his dreams involved Seth, in one way or another. And in the final moment, even though he was being pushed into the corner. He was going all in. Even if it meant losing the only thing that remained good in his life.

They stood face to face in a winter wonderland of the festive season, as strangers who knew everything about each other's bodies but nothing about their hearts.

If Sloane could, he would trade a few years just to understand why Seth was pushing him away at every opportunity. Enough to be close, only a thin glass wall between them. But this wall was so close to shattering, would it reveal a paradise or unravel the illusion?

Sloane didn't understand what Seth wanted out of torturing them both. When Sloane looked into his eyes, he could tell, at least he hoped, Seth felt something for him too.

But an aggressive approach wasn't working. Every step Sloane took forward, Seth would take three steps back.

Seth rested his head on Sloane shoulders, defeated. "Why are you toying with me?" Seth breathed. "What are you trying to achieve?"

Sloane sighed, he felt the tears forming. "I don't know. You consume every part of me and then when we are at home, it's like you're a stranger."

"You know we have rules." Seth affirmed.

Sloane stepped back, to wipe his tears. "Why do we have these rules? Is it because you only want my body? After work you're satisfied and you don't need me anymore. Do you really expect me to believe you don't care about me? If you really wanted to have a strict work only relationship, then why did you bring me to your house. Why are you tormenting me?" Sloane said. "I would always feel like I'm disappointing you. I can't organise my thoughts about you depending on where we are."

"It is you who is tormenting me." Seth voice shattered. He looked like he wanted to say something, but stopped himself.

"Is this because of your first submissive?" Sloane asked. "I don't want to pry but I can't help but feel this is what this is about."

"You're driving me insane." Seth laughed with disbelief.
"Do you really not understand the situation we are in?"

"I'm not playing games with you Seth." Sloane cleared his throat. "Talk to me."

"Then, what do you want from me?" Seth finally asked.

"You know what I want." Sloane said.

"For the contracts to be extended outside the office?" Seth looked away. "How many times am I going to tell you there is no exemption, even for the Chairman."

"I don't want a contact outside the office. I want us to be free from this wall you're building. To have something more than a Master and submissive contact." Sloane took his hand. "Can't we just be like any other pair?"

"I don't want to be just like any other pair." Seth answered. Seth looked like he was about to say something else. And then he looked away. "I'm not changing any rules. Sloane. Not even for you." Seth answered.

"Do you really think that's all that can be between us?" Sloane said.

"What else can there be? Do you see marriage?" Seth looked at Sloane.

"I don't mean-" Sloane flushed. They weren't even dating. Then the mention of marriage.

"Then stop crossing the line." Seth said. "The rules are simple. We can continue to follow them-"

"I'm tired of this fucking line." Sloane shouted. He never had to truly express himself before, because Seth always seemed to understand him. Which was why this hurt so much more. Because it was like Seth was choosing not to understand him. "How can I even kiss you knowing it doesn't even mean anything to you?" He pushed Seth away. "I'm a human being. I'm not a robot like you who can just shut off their feelings."

Seth's eyes softened. "Sloane, I can't do this again." He called softly.

"At the start it was sexual. I had to admit it. And then you were kind. You were taking care of me. And I find it so hard to let anyone near me after all I've been through. But I never held any walls around you, never truly. And then I started thinking about you all the time. I like being with you. When I'm with you, nothing can get better. And then I was falling, so fast, and you- and you don't care. I'm trying to be okay. I'm trying to do everything you asked. My every being already belongs to you, and I can't ever feel this way about anyone else. I can't stop. I can't move on. And I don't know what else to do. I'm not a machine Seth." Sloane held Seth's cheek with his cold hands.

He looked at Seth's lips and then back into his eyes as he kissed him.

They had kissed a thousand times but this was the first time outside their contract. Sloane realised painfully that perhaps this would be the last so he held Seth, savoured his scent, his warmth and his touch, until the very last second where he had to let go.
"Because I love you Seth. So, I can't do this anymore."

Sloane broke one of the most important rules.
And so by rule 5. Violation of the contract can lead to the termination of the BDSM contract.

"I resign, Mr Chairman." Sloane said before walking away.

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Until the next chapter

Love,
Maria