Joshleen: Hitched..

Pain

Colleen's POV

Today we have a show in Atlanta. After the show we are headed to Macon to see Josh's parents and tell them the news, but it's a surprise for Josh. He really misses them and is desperate to see them. 

The meet and greet is over and I have really bad pains in my stomach. I take it back they're not really bad, they're terrible.

"JOSH!!!!!" I yell. He rushes in out of breath.

"Oh my god, baby are you okay?!"

"NO!! I need to go to the hospital!" 

He picks me up and runs to the car. He puts me in the back seat and drives really fast. I scream in pain. I hear sirens getting closer.

"Fuck!" he says and pulls over. The cop comes over.

"License and.." I scream in pain again.

"Look my wife is in a lot of pain right now and I don't know what's wrong." He says to the officer. The officer looks a little scared and shocked. I looked down and there was...blood.

"Josh... I lost the baby." I say crying but quiet

"What?!" he says in shock but about to cry.

"I'm so sorry y'all. Just go to the hospital and get her taken care of." the officer says and walks back to his car. Me and Josh are both crying. Josh starts driving to the hospital. He carries me in.

We are headed back to the hotel after the hospital.

"Josh call your parents." I say

"Why?" he looks over sadly

"Because we were supposed to be there by now and they're probably worried."

"Really babe? Thank you soo much." he says with tears in his eyes

"Your welcome. We will go straight tomorrow morning." I said trying to smile.

{the next morning at Josh's parents}

Josh's POV

We've been here for about 10 minutes and I'm going to tell them. Colleen was up in my old room because she hasn't talked pretty much at all and is very sensitive on the subject. 

"Mom, Dad... umm. Well the reason we didn't come yesterday was because... Well, Colleen was pregnant....But" I said 

"What do you mean "was"" My Dad says

I start to tear up. "We lost the baby..." I'm now crying and a mess

"It's okay Josh, you will have a baby... Now just wasn't the right time." My sweet mama says

"Yeah I know.. I'm gonna go up with Colleen now" I say as I get up and run up the stairs.

Colleen was just laying on the bed staring at the wall with tears running down her face. I lay down behind her and cuddle her. Usually she turns around and kisses me or grabs my hand but she did nothing. She just laid there.

"Baby, I know you're sad but I think if we cuddle it will make you feel better.." I say quietly

"Make ME feel better or YOU.." She says coldly.

"Why are you being like this?!" I said and immediately regretted it.

She turned around sitting up. "ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! WE LOST OUR CHILD LESS THEN 24 HOURS AGO!!!!" She yells and storms off into the bathroom.

Fuck. Why did I have to say that. I was being selfish. I go to the bathroom.

"Colleen I'm sorry. I was being selfish and.. I deserve to be punished but please come out I want to talk." I say through the bathroom door. Nothing.

"Colleen please..." I say louder'

"Leave me alone. I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't want to see anyone. I just want to be with my grandpa right now." she says uncontrollably crying

"I know I'm just really sorry..." Wait her grandpa? Her grandpa is dead. "NO COLLEEN! LET ME IN RIGHT NOW!!"

"Please Josh just let me be with him." she says crying. 

"...You hate me that much to die and take half of my heart to heaven?! I thought you loved me as much as I love you." I say sobbing. She opens the door and jumps in my arms. We stand there for about 5 minutes. "I love you too much to leave." she whispers still crying a little. I can't lose this girl. But what if she gets depression? What if she tries to kill herself? Stop worrying Josh. She will be fine. I hope.