Head Over Heels

Chapter 12

I just got back from Europe so sorry for the wait. It's also a kinda short chapter since I have tons of homework. 😔

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Chapter 12

I had trouble sleeping that night. Nothing really happened in the day besides waiting and doing nothing in the room. It was actually fairly big and they added a TV in it sometime, probably when I was asleep. I was tucked into the clean bedsheets all nice and warm. I didn't really know what to do so I just stared at the ceiling. It had little stars painted on it so I started to count them. I lost track when I head the footsteps.

I could barely hear them. Whoever it was, they're swift and light on their feet. If it weren't dead silent I'm not sure if I would've heard them. I decided that if it were a guard checking up on me, they might get suspicious yet, I have no idea why. I closed my eyes and pretended to be asleep.

Slowly the door creaked open and I peeked my eyes open a tad. I could see a figure standing in the doorway but couldn't see who it was even with my wolf vision.

"Why aren't you sleeping?" He asked. It was Christian.

Since he already knew I was faking being asleep, I sat upright staring at him. "I think a normal person would ask why are you awake, not the opposite."

"Fine. Why are you awake? Especially at 3:20 in the morning?"

I glanced at the clock on the nightstand by the bed. Sure enough it was 3:20 in the morning. I hadn't even realised it was that early. "I couldn't sleep. A better question though would be why are you sneaking around and coming to my room?" I was honestly wondering what his privacy problem was.

He looked a little taken back by my harsh tone but quickly regathered himself and gave that unimpressed glare. It was actually kinda hot. No! You do not think he's hot!

He interrupted my inner argument by simply saying "Because I needed to see you." But the unimpressed glare faded as his emotion morphed. He was facing down when looked up at me with pleading eyes as if he were begging me for something.

"Why do you need to see me?"

"You know why, Kat. Don't make me say it."

This guy really messes with me. This is why I hate him! Why couldn't he be a normal mate like a beta who is from a neighboring pack that I run into? No, he has to be the Alpha who kills my family.

"No, don't make me say it. I don't want it to be true any more than you do. Why don't you just kill me now like you killed my family? Everytime I look at you I think of what you did. You are the exact thing I hate most in the world, a killer. Even worse is that you don't care. You should just kill yourself or your entire pack since you love it so much. You should feel the pain I felt! " I suprised myself by talking like that to him. I have to respect an Alpha no matter what. Why should I if he doesn't respect me though? I never know which is right.

That's when I started to babble. "I didn't mean that. I'm sorry. I don't know why I said that..."

I kept babbling on and staring at the ground until I felt tingles of warmth wrap around my back and arms. I naturally leaned into it and we stood there like that for a moment.

Then I realized what was happening.

I slid out of his hold and waited to see his expression. It nearly broke my heart to know I made him feel the way he looked. It looked as if he were saying sorry with his eyes because he was about to cry. Most of all, he looked hurt.

"You can't just let me tell you off and wrap your arms around me because you killed them. It won't make up for it."

He took a step towards me but I took a step back. He stopped where he was and gazed blankly at me.

"I know that. I just want us to be like a normal couple and-"

"Normal?" I began. "Don't even bring up normal. We, us, this situation can never be normal."

"But we can try. I know that you feel the same way about me as I do for you. I can try to be better, no I will be. I don't know how to explain what I want but I want to be with you. I get nervous leaving you in here. Not about someone attacking you since this place is secure. I'm afraid you'll run away. I know that once you leave you will never come back. That moment that just happened, it felt so...right. I can't stand not seeing you even though we just met. We need each other. I need you."

He literally took my breath away. I never thought that I would ever hear more than three sentences out of his mouth at a time and here he is pouring his heart out. I know I don't like being away from him either. I wish everything COULD be normal.

He gave me that pleading,lost puppy look as I walked up to him and wraped my arms around his neck. We fit perfectly together. He rested his head on my shoulder and I could sense his contentness. I was even happy myself. After a while, he picked me up bridal style and led me to the bed. He laughed a little when he felt my body go rigid.

"Don't worry kitten, you just need to get some sleep. I'm not thinking of anything else."

I relaxed as he lay down on the bed with his shoulders leaning up against the headboard. I lay next to him with my head on his chest. Our arms were wraped around each other when I closed my eyes. It didn't matter what he had done right now. In this moment, it actually did feel normal. I couldn't ask for anything more from Christian...for now. I fell into a deep sleep after listening to his heartbeat.