How To Say "I Love You"

Chapter Four: I Hate You- Indi.

It was just my luck that Tanner was coming down the Court on his way to see Zane. His eyes lit up when he saw me, but confusion overrode as he realized I was leaving. 'Didn't you only just get home?' he asked. I nodded. 'Yes,' he frowned.

'Look, Indi, we need to talk,' he said. I shook my head.

'There's nothing to talk about. We're finished. You know that. You knew that was a risk, yet you let her stay. You never told her to leave. You let her in, let her follow you. You wanted her,' I said, tears brimming. He sighed. 'I didn't! I swear. She's a toxic arsehole, that's just common knowledge.' He protested. I sneered. 'Well, it's been done. Whether she forced her way in or not. YOU LET HER STAY!' my voice pitched to a scream. 'God, Indi! Stop being paranoid! For the last time, IT WASN'T MY FAULT! I STOOD UP FOR YOU,' he yelled. I felt a tear fall.

'I FELT GUILTY! I felt bad that I broke it, broke us, but it took me to get knocked out TO REALISE IT WAS YOU! YOU. YOU WERE THE REASON. IT WAS YOUR CHOICE. AND YOU KNEW IT THE MINUTE SIENNA FOUND YOU TWO IN THE KITCHEN!' I was going, and there was no stopping. He inhaled sharply. For a minute I thought that he'd realized, until he spoke, barely a whisper, dripping with pain the way it had when he'd stood up for me the day after we broke up. 'If you're so hellbent on it, go date fucking Luke Sorrell. He's your boyfriend anyway, and if I'm cheating, I'd better head round to Charlotte's, then,' it was my turn to be shocked.

'You know that wasn't true. You know.' I whispered back. He sighed.

'You "knew" Charlotte came on her own, you "knew" it wasn't me. But here we are, fighting because your view changed after the amnesia. Fighting, because of you,' the tears were rolling like a car on the freeway now. 'You know what? I HATE YOU! I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN. GET OUT OF MY LIFE AND DON'T COME BACK. GO!' I yelled. His eyes went wide.

'Indi...' he began. I shook my head.

'No. FUCK OFF. HAVE A NICE LIFE,' I screamed, then walked.

***

I never ended up going to Kardinia. I went home and cried. Hours. Hours on hours on hours I cried. I had no idea what time it was when a knock on my door made me look up. 'Come in,' I whispered. It was Yasmin. 'You ok, bubs?' she asked. I shook my head.

'I don't look it do I?' I replied. she sat next to me.

'What happened?' her voice was soft. I sniffed.

'You know how we broke up? Yes, well,' I paused. 'I was on my way to KP, and he was on his way here to get Zane for strength, and he tried to fix it, but I could not believe him. I just couldn't. It got to the point where we were yelling, and then- then I told him I hated him and told him to get out of my life and don't come back and that I never wanted to see him again,' I said. Yas's eyes went soft.

'Oh, Indi.' She hugged me, and I never wanted her to let go.

I hate you. The three words I was always going to regret. The three words that clouded everything every day. The three words that broke him. The three words that broke me. 

A/N: short chapter sorry :)