Meant to Be

Will you do it?

I was sitting down and talking to my brother along with Bellamy. Logan looks at me and says. "So what have I missed while I was gone?" I looked at my brother and said. "Uhm... well I was almost killed by my own father, almost got caught while stealing, and you know the rest, basically that's pretty much it, yeah..." I answered chuckling.

"You forgot about the part when you simply dumped me, out of nowhere." Bellamy says looking at me.

I rolled my eyes because of how dramatic he was being, I did not dump him out of reason, the reason I dumped him was not because of him, it was because of me, I was not okay with myself, and I needed to be, to give him what he deserved.

"It was so not out of reason. You're being so dramatic." I said to him.

"What, you guys broke up?" Logan asked shocked.

"No, we didn't break up, she dumped me." Bellamy insisted while sending me draggers.

Logan looked at me accusingly. "Why would you do that? You guys were perfect together."

"Agreed." Bellamy said and I looked over to see my brother nodding his heads in agreement.

"Cut the bullshit..." I said while standing up "...You knew I wasn't happy, I mean I was at the beginning of it, when everything was still normal. You knew I wasn't okay after what happened, I was never okay, and I never will be, I'm hurting okay..." I said with tears in my eyes threatening to fall "... why can't you guys see that."

"It's okay!" My brother said to me.

"IT'S NOT OKAY! IT'S NOT!" I quietly shouted, only loud enough for them to hear. "They hurt me, and it doesn't matter if they are dead, it doesn't matter if I killed them, in their eyes I will always be a murdered with no heart, nothing else, and they are still in me, I feel them everywhere. Everywhere I go, everything I see, they are present always on my shoulder, whispering things getting inside my brain." I said pacing around in front of them, my hands in my head, while they looked at me surprised by what I just said.

"I'm s-" Bellamy started.

"Don't. It won't change anything, it won't make me happy again, and it certainly won't make them go away." I said before walking way, leaving them there, staring at me. While walking I heard someone scream, following that scream I was left looking at a young girl who looked around 10 or a little bit older. The child continued screaming No's while moving around.

"Hey! Wake up. It's ok, It's ok." I said shaking the girl for her to wake up. When the girl woke up and sat up straight o noticed she had tears in her eyes. "It's just a dream. You're Charlotte, right?" I said looking at her. "I'm Hazel. Do you want to talk about it?"

The girl looked at me and shook her head no, and so I nodded. "If you ever need anything you tell me, okay?" The girl nodded, and rested her head on my shoulder, I rested mine on top of hers and looked up at the stars.

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I woke in the middle of the night, still in the same spot I fell asleep, and when I looked to my side, the girl was gone so I got up and went to my tent I was sharing with Bellamy. How did I get that tent? Well that I also ask myself. When I walked in Octavia was fast asleep in my bed. Why? Have no idea, but Bellamy was wide awake and staring straight into my soul. I looked at him and shook my head.

"What?"

Bellamy got up and walked closer to me, before grabbing my arm and dragging me outside the tent. "Where the hell were you? I was worried sick"