How To Tame Monsters

Chapter 20: Married

A/N: I hope you all enjoy it! 

Nia's Pov:

Too many emotions were warring inside me right now. Euriphoia because something inside me was finally set in place as it always should have been.

Shame and self-loathing having a tea party because of what my mother said to me. What she said in my childhood and just now as well as the one agreed upon truth, once you have sex before marriage, you can't get into heaven.

Then there's the excitement or nervousness because something else feels new and different in me, like magic, like power.

And sorrow, bone-deep sorrow because how could I be so greedy, so selfish, reaching far above for something that was never meant to be mine? Now I am dealing with the consequences, yet how could I have done anything else? How could they not be mine?

When everything about them draws me in, like a moth to a flame. Conformation in what I feel whenever our skin touch and their words and actions align.

My Cody, My Roger, My Gannon, My Perice, mine, and I feel so undeserving. At war with myself and all my emotions, only able to sob as my mind races.

My heart was pulsing under my skin as Cody held me close to him, his hands stroking my naked skin under the cover. Roger's hand was on my back as he encouraged me to let it all out.

Gannon still stood so far away at the now-closed door, his back tense as if he were debating on running after my mother. Why did she have to come just as Roger and I were about to claim each other?

To go from an extreme high to an extreme low, in front of nearly all my mates is embarrassing, to say the least. Fear of being seen as pathetic and desperate seized my throat but still, I pushed through.

"Don't leave me, please", my voice cracked, yet it sounded so wet from all my crying.

Gannon turned around to face us, the anger on his face was clear as day. I swallowed thickly reminding myself that it wasn't directed at me, surely.

My lips quivered and tears blurred my vision again because what if I was wrong and he is pissed at me. I didn't listen to him when he told me to stop, I simply wanted more, it felt too good, too right to stop. I wanted it so badly and I knew that Roger and Cody did as well. It would have been perfect if Gannon and Pierce could have joined.

Even so, I didn't listen to him, I was disobedient. Which means I earned his ire and whatever he will yell at me for. Like I coward, I turned away from him, hiding my face in the crook of Cody's neck as I sobbed more.

Feeling so weak in myself since the idea of Gannon screaming at me, like my mother would, made my chest hurt. It was all too much.

Roger's hand paused on the middle of my back, "you're bleeding, your cycle started"

I move one of my hands down to my stomach, as the urge to pee becomes more persistent. I turned my head enough to look at Roger, "How is my cycle going to affect you? I don't think we talked about it before"

Roger smiled at me gently, "I'll just be clingy, protective, and wanting to service you more than usual and in desperate need to drink every drop your pretty cunt lets out"

I blinked a few times at this information. My mind raced at the thought of my vampire mate devouring me as I bled, the orgasms would help with my cramps. Then I think of him with human lovers doing the same thing and my chest tightens with rage and jealousy.

"He is ours remember", Cody tells me with a smile, kissing my cheek, "now and forever"

"Ours", I repeated flaring my nostrils, as I was reminded of the fact that my bond with Cody is complete now. My head tilted as I looked at Cody, my words a hiss to vent out my frustration over the fact that we were interrupted by my mother, "Almost, closer than Gannon and Pierce"