Violent Sun - S.a.M.S AU

comfort

No One's POV

There was a loud knock on the front door, Sun and Bloodmoon were cuddling on the bed downstairs. Sun sat up slowly, wiping the dried tears off his face. Bloodmoon sat up and they glanced at each other before hearing talking coming from upstairs. Sun got up, Bloodmoon following behind, they made their way up the stairs.

Eclipse "Speak of the devil" He said looking over to Sun stepping up onto the last step.

"What's going on?" Sun looked over to Moon and Solar who were standing awkwardly by the door.

"Hey bud" Moon said, taking a step forward.

"We heard what happened..." Solar said quietly, the room becoming more quiet than before.

"Ok? And? You guys never even liked Bloody, let alone both the twins-" Sun was cut off by Moon hugging him, Sun thinking this was unnecessary and flinched harshly, before slightly relaxing, Moon not taking notice.

"We- I wanted to come and comfort you..." Moon said quietly while pulling away.

"Oh-" Sun looked away, not sure how to feel.

"Sun I know you want to fix Bloody, but it can't be done unless you have help... The destruction done would take months to fix on your own, and even if you did it would destroy you." Eclipse said stepping closer to Sun.

"I know." Sun mumbled, sighing and looking around the room for a second before looking at Bloodmoon.

"Ok- I- I do need help" Each word was a big higher pitched as he was attempting not to cry, keeping his eyes locked with Bloodmoon, as if asking him for help.

"We'll do what we can." Moon said smiling, trying to bring the mood up.

"But first let's get you back to an at least ok mental state." Eclipse said gently grabbing Sun's hand, despite getting embarrassed that everyone else will see, Moon looking a little suspicious of it.

Eclipses POV

I took Sun's hand and pulled him over to the couch and set him down, Moon coming over and sitting next to him. I felt a little embarrassed to be affectionate towards anyone while Moon and Solar were around, I went over to the kitchen and started to prepare dinner for Sun.

Time skip

After making dinner and eating, we all put a movie on to make the mood lighter. I sat down next to Sun after turning all the lights off, Moon looked a little pissed at that and sat on the other side of the couch. I could tell he wanted to be the one to comfort him, you snooze you loose. I could tell that Moon saw my small smirk, because he scoffed.

The movie started and it was going well, Bloodmoon hated the movie we were watching and went to snack in the kitchen, and the movie became sad, not sad enough to affect me. I felt Sun press into me, when I looked down I noticed his small shudders from his silent sobbing. I pulled him closer, I could tell he didn't want Moon to notice.

"Hey Moon." I whispered over the top of the couch, he slowly looked over and I felt Sun tense.

"Can you get some ice cream out of the freezer in the kitchen?" He rolled his eyes and got up, knowing that Sun was leaning against me. I sighed and felt Sun relax again looking up into my eyes, in that moment I felt myself melt from the inside. His sad, tired eyes looking up at me, the thought that I knew he wanted- no... needed me made me love him more.

I couldn't help but smile, I stuck my tongue out at him and he giggled, moving closer to me, his arms wrapping around my torso for a soft hug. I pulled him closer and squeezed him, I looked over to see Solar side glancing at me. I couldn't help but chuckle a tiny bit, and look down at Sun again. I watched as Solar got up from the side of my eye and walked over to the kitchen.

Time skip

After the movie ended I noticed Sun and Bloodmoon (Who was on the floor beneath Sun) were asleep. I scooped Sun up into my arms and took him to the upstairs room because it was nicer, and because I slept there. After tucking Sun in I was about to leave when I felt him tug my arm, I looked back at his tired half awake face.

"Stay~" He said groggily, I chuckled and stepped closer.

"In a minute." I stepped out of the room and headed downstairs where Bloodmoon was sleeping on the floor, Moon and Solar were asleep snuggled together. I sighed and lifted BloodMoon onto the couch, and then gently tapped Solars arm.

He opened his eyes and blinked a few times before looking around the dark room. I pointed towards the door with my head and then pointed to my wrist like I have a watch, he nodded and slowly stood up, Moon sliding off of him. And Solar picked him up bridal style. Everyone said their silent goodbyes.

I headed upstairs and got in bed, feeling really tired from social interactions with people I hate. I gently pulled Sun into a soft hug, and fell asleep that way.

Sun was not used to comfort when feeling like absolute shit, he always made the allusion that his favorite fictional character was there to comfort him, or that someone actually came to comfort him when he was having a mental breakdown but in reality that never happened. So when Sun received the comfort it felt abnormal to be held when he was sad or hurting, his tears only coming if his emotions were overbearing or pain inflicted. He was never able to cry when he needed to, so everyone thought he was faking being sad, but now it felt weird to be told you were sad. Sun thought that saving Eclipse and the twins from being an outcast would help his mental problems but then he was being called a people pleaser, and a push over.

Sun would want to cuddle when sad or feeling lonely or just because, but because everyone was so busy there was always no one to ever see his needs, his siblings being too careless to notice and taking most of it as a joke unless it was about them as well. Slowly spiraling down into a pit of depression, his feelings of happiness fading and even if his favorite person came by to comfort them they thought that it would help with the thoughts to go away but instead it made it worse... All they wanted was to be happy and to not just keep everyone else happy, all they could do was sit there and make everyone else smile. All they were good for was keeping the house clean, and making sure the family was happy and the people around them. If they heard their thoughts it would all go down hill, and crap.

All of this shit in their life cause voices of random or not of their own to arise and scare them, they dont know how to act, they dont know anything anymore, age regressing when they were able to, and trying so so hard to not become someone else. Its almost like other people live in their head and its when their the saddest that only then they get comfort from not real people but from the ones in their head, the ones from fantasy and now its when they need it the most and they get that affection it doesnt feel right because it was always fantical when getting that affection that physical affection is more painfull, realizing that it wont be long before they have to get up and leave, and be somewhere else, its not until they finally get the comfort they need that they realize its never going to be just comfort, everyone will always leave them and everything will always be about in the future and never in the moment.

-Sylo

-Zetny

-Amie