Shawn Mendes Imagines

Im Done

I'm fucking done with this fandom. Everyone in it. When I signed up for wattpad, I didn't sign up for every one of my fucking friends being driven to suicide because of a dumb ass who wanted to put their fucking two cents in.

I didn't fucking sign up to text my friends on Kik hoping that they fucking answer and that they didn't fucking try to take their life and succeeding.

I didn't sign up for crying every fucking day because my friend who I don't even know in real life is in the fucking hospital having their friends update their wattpads because they tried to commit.

I didn't sign up to go to sleep seeing my friends happy and then waking up with my messages blown up with my friends saying that they want to take pills because they are done with life

I DIDNT SIGN UP FOR THIS. I DIDNT SIGN UP TO NOT BE THERE FOR MY FUCKING FRIENDS WHEN THEY WANTED TO DIE AND I WAS TOO BUSY SLEEPING.

I DIDNT SIGN UP TO HAVE TO WAKE UP ONE MORNING AND POSSIBLY HAVE MY FRIENDS TELL ME THAT SHES DEAD

I. DIDNT. SIGN. UP. FOR. IT.

STOP ACTING LIKE YOUR FUCKING REAL AND THAT YOU LOVE SHAWN BUT YOU WOULD HAVE THE NERVE TO DRIVE A PERSON TO KILLING THEMSELVES AND SAY IT WAS FOR FUCKING ATTENTION

AND DONT YOU FUCKING DARE FEEL SORRY AND ACT LIKE YOU WERE THERE FOR HER. DONT. YOU. FUCKIN. DARE. DONT YOU FUCKING DARE CALL YOURSELF A REAL FUCKING FAN OF SHAWNS BUT THEN TELL ONE IF HIS FANS TO KILL THEMSELVES.

DONT. YOU. FUCKIN. DARE.

So since people in this "family" wanna tell other people to die , I will not being cooperative in this so called "army" cause as far as I'm concerned, people in a army don't turn against each other.

I checked out the person who hated on her. I looked at their page and saw that they weren't considering it cyber bullying because they knew her. IT IS STILL FUCKING CYBER BULLYING!

Honestly, if Belle actually did it I'm quitting wattpad. I'm quitting everything. Because of that person I don't know if my best friend is alive. I'm beyond scared. Belle is absolutely amazing. She is so kind and beautiful. These people need to understand that words hurt. Honestly how many suicides does it take for them to realize that.

They called her an attention whore because she cuts. I cut bit I don't do it for attention. I do it because I fucking hate my life. I hate me. I'm here because of my friends and family. I put on a smile everyday but I don't mean it.

Whoever is hating on everyone just stop. If you don't like them don't fuck with them. Just ignore them. But don't go and fucking tell them that they deserve to die and that nobody loves them. I love each and every one of you with all my heart. You all mean everything to me.

I've had to talk to many fucking friends out of suicide and its taking a toll on me. I already have a shit life and knowing that my best friends are hurting makes it 102866894303 times worse.

The feeling of not knowing if your best friend is alive or not is terrifying. I've been in my to since I got home from vacation because honestly I'm done with everything.

Anyone hating on them come and hate on me. I can take it. I'm used to being called useless and worthless. I'm used to being told I'm nothing. I can take the hate but don't go to people who are really sensitive about being hated on. Honestly I don't know what to do anymore.

Belle if you are reading this know that I love you. I love you so freaking much! You are my best friend and you have helped me through so much. You are an amazing and beautiful person. Don't let these jealous motherfuckers get to you. I love you so much.

~Tessa