DIVERSO [EN]

The Last Goodbye?

I've never looked at the sky so often
I've never been in my head this much
It feels like I don't have the right
The right to write about the grief
The grief I feel for him
To feel the pain of loss
Loss of someone else's child
Someone else's brother
Someone else's father
Someone else's lover

It feels so distant to me
Yet so close and real
It stings like a little feather
Every little feather of your angel wings
Trying to reach my heart
To calm its rate of motion
The pain in the motion
The fact it's becoming motionless
Subconsciously trying to reach yours
To reach the single wave of your beating
The heart so kind so giving

It still is surreal
To wake up and realize you're gone
To realize it shouldn't cut so deep
It shouldn't hurt this bad
I wish the sky would have ripped open
Once in a while
Just to offer us to say hi once in a while
Or just once in a lifetime
There's just too much left unsaid
Too much left unsolved
Too much left unanswered and unfinished

I ease my mind
Thinking you're good and safe up there
Watching over your family, your son
Watching over your friends
Over all of us
I like to imagine you're smiling
Smiling watching us getting together
To remember the good old times
To celebrate your successes in life
To celebrate the man you are
To support each other
To support the man you are

I'm still not in the state of mind
Where I could say you were
Because in my mind
In my heart
Part of my soul
You're still there
Still here on this earth
Walking among us
Touching our hearts and souls
Trying to lead our ways
Trying to help us all
Through pain
And heartbreak
And addiction
And anxiety
Depression
Suffering
You're here to support us all
in every single decision we make
Every single day
To support us all
To choose the per-fect path to walk

You're gone but not forgotten
You're everywhere
In our hearts and prayers