MUTE [A Chris Colfer Imagine]

MUTE 2/?

I couldn't believe that he was right there in front of me. Liam gave me a little nudge, and I stepped forward so that I was standing right in the view of my idol Chris Colfer. I didn't know what to do, I was so starstruck and he was so beautiful, so I did the first thing that came to mind and gave him a tiny wave.

"Hi beautiful," He grinned giving me a wave back. "What's your name?"

I got out my pen and notebook and started to write, I could hear people murmur behind me but I ignored them and held my notebook up to Chris. "Hi Chris, my name is [Y/N] and I'm such a huge fan of yours. You changed my life."

I felt a huge sigh of relief escape my lips when Chris didn't even look weirded out, he just looked up at me with a massive smile on his face. "Oh well hi there [Y/N], what a beautiful name you have.." I was squealing on the inside, he thought my name was BEAUTIFUL. "You're words are so kind." He complimented me.

I blushed so hard, I couldn't believe that he was saying these words to me. I flipped the page on my notebook and wrote again before showing it to him. "I know you don't have much time for me but I'd really like it if you could sign my book for me? It'd be the greatest gift ever."

He read what I wrote and pouted. "Are you trying to get away from me?" He asked.

My eyes widened, how could he ever think that? I opened my mouth going to tell him that I didn't want that at all, and froze abruptly. I couldn't believe what had just happened. I couldn't believe that I had tried to just speak. I could feel tears well up in my eyes as I slapped my hand over my mouth. I needed to get out of there.

Liam tried to touch my shoulder and on instinct, I flinched. He looked shocked and I felt so guilty, it was the first time I've ever flinched around Liam or when he's touched me.

I hated myself, I was such a bad person. Everybody was staring at me and I felt trapped, Liam was looking as shocked as I felt while Chris looked on in concern.

I didn't know what to do, I squeezed my eyes shut and when I felt the first tear trail down my face.. I bolted. I ran out of the book store ignoring Liam's calls, and I'm pretty sure I could hear Chris shouting my names too, but I ignored them both and headed for the car.

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My phone was ringing signalling that I had gotten a text message, but I ignored it. I didn't know what to do or what had happened back at the book store - I was just so confused and wished somebody could tell me what the hell was going on with my life right now.

I slid down the side of Liam's car and pulled my knees to my chest. I started to think about Chris and how he'd spoken to me - he made me feel like I was a complete different person. He made me smile, he made me laugh and he made me want to tell him WITH MY OWN VOICE that he meant so much to me and that I loved him.

But I couldn't do that, because the last time I spoke, I was bullied constantly and I couldn't have that happening over again.

"[Y/N]!" I heard my name being called and before I knew it, Liam was kneeling infront of me and taking my face into his hands. "What the hell happened back there?" He exclaimed.

He was looking super frantic and all I could do was feel guilty for flinching when he touched me. "You actually went to speak to Chris." Liam carried on rambling and I could feel myself getting a headache. I wanted to go home.

I held my hand up for him to stop before I got my phone out my pocket and sent him a text. It was easier than writing in my notebook.

[TEXT MESSAGE] Please can we forget this ever happened? I'm so embarrassed right now and I don't know what happened. I just want to go home Liam. I had one chance at meeting my idol and I messed everything up, just like I always do. I'm such a fuck up.

I didn't give Liam the chance to say anything else before I was standing up and walking around to the passenger side of the car. I was just so fed up and angry with myself, I ruin everything good in my life.

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We got back to my house and I went straight upstairs to my room. Liam tried speaking to me but I ignored him and just curled up in bed, eventually after several attempts, he decided to leave me alone.

"I know you're angry at everything right now," He sat down on my bed and stroked my hair. "But don't beat yourself up over this, if anything I'd say it's progress." He sighed, went into his back and pulled out something.

"Look [Y/N], it's clear that you don't want to speak and I'm not going to make you, all I'm going to do is tell you that I'm here for you and always will be, and that you need to look at this."

I had my eyes closed so didn't see what he placed down. It wasn't until he left me that I opened my eyes and looked at what he left. It was a TLOS book, but why was he so insistent that I read what was inside it? I didn't want to know right now, so I dropped the book on the floor, curled up in bed and cried myself to sleep.