Living with Exo

Dont go

A/N: Ahh hey guys. Omg I always update so late. I don't know if anyone is even reading this anymore. But ill continue this story anyways. And ill really really try to write fast and update so I could get to the parts that I really want to get to. So sorry for updating late once again and sorry if this chap is boring ahh~ kk that's it go on an read. Tehe ^^

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4 DAYS LATER
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One of the best feelings ever is when your so tired and torn out, someone offers you a cup of hot green tea.

Well at least for me it is.

"Thanks! It's just what I need" I beamed at D.O who had a smile on his face.

"Right! You seem tired. Perhaps did you do anything tiring?" He questioned while hands busy marinating chicken.

He was planning to make Kai's favourites as a welcome gift for him since he was being released from the hospital today.

Kai is getting too much love and attention these days.

"Oh...um.. Nothing really. Just some work here and their" I let out a nervous laugh.

D.o beamed once again and nodded his head. "than you probably have lack of energy. Rest a lot ok"

"I will, in fact that what I've been doing these days" I said taking a sip of the tea.

He chuckled and nodded "I have to agree"

I giggled along with him and asked "do you need help? I need to work for once"

"No, their nothing for you to do really." He shook his head as his light brown hair fell on top of his brows.

"Alright" I said "call me if you need me. I'll be in my bed room"

"cool" he remarked as I smiled and walked to my room with the cup of tea in my hand.

On the way I saw suho in the hallway who beamed and ruffled my hair as he passed by.

I returned his smile, but as soon as he passed by, the frown returned back onto my lips.

To be honest, I am really tired. I've been really running around lately and the fact that I have to hide everything from Exo just makes things much harder.

I stepped into my bedroom and closed the door behind myself.

My room was a total mess. things were thrown everywhere, at last this should be expected since I am planning on leaving.

Really, I'm just so tired of things, and I'm pretty sure people are tired of me as well.

They have no idea how hard it is for me to just show a simple smile because it's something's that my lips has forgotten to do.

Yet I'm trying my best to smile whenever I can just so that others don't find out how worn out I really am inside.

I know how fans hate it when they see me with Exo at all times, yet I've been taking every chance to be with them lately.

I want my last days with them to be full of memories and I've been doing things that I wanted to do together with them, so that when I leave, I won't have any regrets.

I can't imagine how it would feel to leave their dorm that I think of as my owns.

I've been used to having them around me so much that life would feel empty if I don't see them.

Yet I will stick with my decision of leaving because I've already messed up things for Exo so much that I can never really ask forgiveness for it.

I'll think of exo as a chapter in the book of my life that is soon going to end.