Susana is the maknae of a famous Kpop girls group called Girl Generation or Snsd that consist of 10 members. She came to korea leaving her parents behind from Chicago, U.S.A 2 years ago. She was accepted as a trainee in SM Entertaintment, and so aft...
I knew I had done wrong, and that's why I didn't want to apologize, because I knew if I was in Kai's position and somebody who I cared about told me those harsh words, than i wouldn't forgive that person.
At least not until I felt like they deserved it, and I know I don't deserve his forgiveness.
"I can't believe you said that to him" sunny exclaimed with a frown of disappointment on her face.
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She is the only person from my group mates that knows about my feelings. I had told her from the beginning. From the time when Taeyeon had questioned my feelings for the members when I was in the hospital from the accident.
I told sunny about what was keeping me in Korea at that time. She was the only person who I knew would only listen without making me feel like I was doing something wrong.
And now I had opened up to her once again. I told her about what had happened after I left the mall yesterday.
Well Sunny is worth being yelled at too, she knew about Luhan and Krystal but still didn't tell me about it. But its enough that I caused problems with Kai. I don't want any conflict with sunny before I leave china.
"I was angry" I said with a plain expression "I didn't mean a word I said"
She nodded in agreement. "Of course you would be, but I'm sure he took your words like you really meant it"
Their was a moment of silence between us before she said "should I talk to him?"
I shook my head.
I didn't want her to talk to him. If she solves my problem for me, than to Kai it would only look like I didn't care enough about him to come and apologize myself.
"I'll have to do it myself if I really want him to forgive me"
"Your going to their performance tomorrow?" She asked looking at me curiously.
I shook my head once again "i don't think I could"
"Why not?" She questioned
"Huh" I sight "its just... hard"
We were in silence once again and she was the one who broke it.
"Alight!" She sight "Forget all this for a while and try to get some sleep ok" I nodded and laid on the bed beside her.
It was quite for a while until I asked her "do you think... luhan really likes Krystal?"
"I don't think he would date her otherwise"
I paused thinking how correct she was. Luhan chose to be with her, its not like he was forced in the relationship.
"Right" I mumbled.
After a while when my mind shifted back on Kai I questioned "how long would it take until Kai forgives me?" I paused and continued "He is just... someone who I talk to so frequently that... that I feel kinda empty if I don't talk to him."
