I could feel the jealousy bubbling up inside of me as I walked in their direction, walking past and completely ignoring the both of them as I continued down the hall, headed for my next class.
"Moony! Moony, wait up!" Sirius called after me. I could hear him getting closer, his jogging steps turning into slowly walking steps as he caught up to me.
"Moony, what did he say?" Sirius asked loosely wrapping his arm around my shoulder which I shrugged off.
"What's wrong? Did he say no?" he quizzed.
"He's going to meet with McGonagall and Pomfrey, and they'll see what they can do by the end of the week." I told him bluntly.
"Hey! That's good. Right?" he asked and I shrugged as a response.
"Moony what's wrong? Why are you being so cold towards me? Did I do anything?" Sirius asked, his voice dripping with concern, which sent a shock wave of guilt through me.
"You didn't do anything." I told him and I think he knew I was lying by the way he stopped me and stood barely an inch in front of me.
"Remus Lupin, my Moony, what is wrong?" Sirius asked, completely serious.
"Nothing is wrong, Sirius. It's just something I have to deal with in my own head." I told him truthfully. I do need to sort it out, being jealous of every girl that talks to Sirius is not going to end well.
"Please tell me what it is so I can help you." Sirius pleaded, grabbing my shoulders, keeping me in place.
"Sirius please. This isn't something you need to worry about." I told him trying to walk away and being stopped again.
"Moony. Please." he pleaded, once again giving me unbearable puppy dog eyes.
"Alright. Fine. I'm jealous, see there's nothing you can do to help with this." I informed him walking away, this time I was able to because he was frozen in place trying to understand what I had just told him.
"Wait! Wait what? You're jealous of what?" Sirius asked catching up with me once again.
"I'm jealous of the fact that there's a ninety percent chance that I'll walk down the hall, and you'll be there with someone flirting or even just talking, and it will drive me crazy. Anytime I see you talking to someone else, I get this feeling it's irrational to think that way, but that's just the way my mind works." I spilled, stopping dead in my tracks.
"Moony, you know that nothing will ever happen between me and anyone else at this school or on earth. I'm all yours, you have to know that." Sirius assured me, and I felt my jealousy melt away.
"I know. Trust me, I know, but when I see someone else who you could be with talking to you, I feel a little threatened. There are so many other people at this school you could go out with that are in so many ways better to me. I guess the thought of you with someone else makes me feel unsure about this relationship, which I know is stupid, but I can't help thinking about you with someone else that would be a better match for you, someone who isn't mentally, physically and emotionally broken and scared." I told him, avoiding his gaze by focusing on my shoes.
"I don't want anyone else Moony. I don't care if you're mentally unstable or if your body is covered in scars Remus there is not a single part of you that I don't want. All the good, all the bad, all of it, I want all of you. Every part, whether you think I can handle it or not, I want to know everything about you." Sirius admitted, taking both my hands in his and lifting them to his lips, placing gentle feather-like kisses to my knuckles.
"There are parts of me I don't want you to know about because I'm scared you'll look at me differently and treat me differently. Like some fragile mess that needs fixing." I told him.
