Healing Hearts

Nightmares

ANIKA

I tossed and turned on my bed before sighing and sitting up, Insomnia is the worst thing that can happen to a person. I have had insomnia since 10th standard, At first I thought maybe it was because I never went out much but even during the last two years of school when I used to go to school everyday and went out alot due to my mother's constant need of some spice she forgot that exists.

Still after being tired I never got proper sleep, Somedays I do get better sleep but after becoming a college student I think I have lost my sense of peace.

It was 4:11 am in the morning and I knew Ira was probably sleeping because that girl can sleep literally anywhere. I reached out for my phone and called my mother, and within a few rings she instantly picked up.

"Anika? Ki holo? Shob thikache toh?" Asked my mother on call.

(What happened? Is everything okay?)

"Haan Maa, Shob thikache chinta korona. Tumi thikacho toh? Ar baba ki korche?" I reassured her softly.

(Yes Maa, Everything is alright don't worry. Are you okay? And what is Dad doing?)

"Arey tor baba khobor dekha chara ar ki kichu kore?" Asked my mother sarcastically making me chuckle lightly.

(What else does your father do besides watching news?)

"Thik. Ar tumi ki korchile?" I asked while stretching abit.

(Right, And what were you doing?)

"Ami bas khawar bananor video dekhchilam" Said my mother before she happily went on a full on rant about one of the dishes she was watching and then from that topic she began talking about some relative's daughter and then about some random philosophical video she watched on Facebook.

(I was just watching a cooking video)

After an hour of listening to her talking about random topics, She finally ended the call after saying that one of her friends was calling her.

I let out a long sigh as I laid down on the bed, I don't feel good at all. Something's bothering me and I don't know what it is, maybe it's the the overthinking I always do.

Do I deserve to be here? Have I given enough? What if I turn out to become a nobody in the end? What if I can't keep up with studies? Why in the world is everything looking so tiring right now?

The flashback of the Ten year old me being ridiculed by my teachers at school because I wasn't smart enough, Being told that I could never do anything in my life.

Do I really deserve this? Have I worked hard enough to deserve this?

I tossed and turned before sitting up again and getting off the bed and then walking out of my room only to see Ira asleep on the couch with her one leg hanging off the couch and her book was on her face.

I sighed softly before cautiously walking towards her and picking up the book from over her face. I gently moved her leg on the couch before fixing the cushion beneath her head and covering her with a blanket.

I would've woken her up but I didn't because she has pulled a lot of all nighter this week to study, So it's important for her to get some sleep.

As I walked into my room again, I felt exhausted. I just wanted to sleep and forget about everything negative. But the bullying I went through in school, The comparison I had to go through for my entire life till now..it was just weighing on my shoulders.

As if constantly reminding me that I was a failure and nothing else, That no matter what I do I always ruin everything.

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ADITYA

Again, That nightmare was happening again. The fourteen year old me running into the hospital, just standing there with my heartbeat thudding. My shirt being drenched in blood, my hands which had blood on them.

The nurse telling me to call someone older, and that moment of realisation I went through that my parents were no longer alive. I saw my parents looking back at me with their wounded bodies, their eyes were almost blaming me for their death.

I heard my mother's scream and tried running towards her but the place became pitch black and I kept running until I jolted awake, sitting on my bed while breathing heavily and sweating from the nightmare.

I tugged onto my hair with both hands while trying to breath normally, My head was pounding and I felt nauseous. Slowly, In stared down at my hands as if the blood was still on them. Shutting my eyes, I tried to reassure myself that it wasn't my fault but was that true? What if I had picked up my mother's call earlier that day?

I got off from the bed and ran my fingers through my hair before walking over to my closet and putting on a t-shirt. It has always been like this, These nightmares had haunted me ever since that horrible day.

That day my parents passed away. Looking back, I just hated myself more and more. Blamed myself for everything but nothing seemed to pull me out of that slump I had fallen into six years ago. I sighed while leaning forward on the kitchen counter, I hated this.

I walked over towards the couch with a can of beer in my hands, I scrolled through my phone on Instagram and suddenly a particular account caught my eye. It was that girl, Ira's roommate.

I tapped on her account and found it was private, but I could still see the highlights. She only had two, One had her pictures and the other were of the moon or the sky. Her profile picture was...well pretty. Very pretty to be precise.

But for some reason I let out a soft chuckle, Remembering her kicking me and then panicking when she realised she misunderstood.

"You're surely one hell of a troublemaker" I murmured while pressing on the follow button as I sent her a follow request.

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A/N:

Hello, I'm sorry for not updating for so long but I literally ran out of ideas. I was horrified at first because I genuinely couldn't get an idea of what I should write, but thankfully my braincells have not yet given up and I got a small idea.

Before I say anything, This year is going to end in 2 days now. I have no idea how quickly this year passed by, but I made some memories and had some fun. This year wasn't the best of course (really terrible in other words) but I had fun. I wish the next year I can learn more new things and work on my making myself better and write more stories because reading your comments always make my day better💗

Anyways I hope you liked this chapter, Don't forget to vote and leave a comment by because I like reading your comments. Oh and by the way, I recently bought that Harry Potter edition of kinder joy and got Hedwig. It's really fun I'm hoping I get Hermione the next time haha. Anyways, I wish you all a very happy new year in advance and I hope you all stay happy and healthy forever💗