Healing Hearts

Friends

I stared at my mobile screen, the tons of messages I sent to Nikita were left on seen. I can't understand what the problem is, I have always been there for her, we were never like this so what changed?

I sighed loudly before closing my eyes as I laid on my back on the bed, I felt tired of everything. Life really sucks so much at this moment, my life isn't hard or anything like that but it's just that...it isn't on the right track right now. Maybe I'm not trying much but still, everything feels overwhelming.

Just then my room's door opened and my mother walked in, even with my eyes closed I could tell it was her.

"Did you have a fight with Nikita again?" Asked my mother while sitting beside me on the bed.

I changed my position as I rested my heas on her lap and just stayed quiet like always.

"You know, I have never said anything regarding these things in your brother's life too but there was a point when I didn't like one of his friends and that same boy backstabbed him" Said my mother while massaging my head.

"I know you don't like Nikita, Maa. Just say it, I won't be hurt or anything" I mumbled while keeping my eyes close.

"It's not like I'm saying she's bad..but maybe she isn't your true friend. True friends..are always there for you, no matter what and when you're going in the wrong track your true friends will always pull you back and warn you" Said my mother softly.

I stayed silent for a few moments before humming then sitting up.

"Do you want me to do some work? This is why you're being affectionate all of a sudden" I said jokingly of course before she smacked my head.

"Let's go eat. Dinner is ready, help me set the table my lovely daughter" Said my mother while looking at me and wiggling her eyebrows.

I chuckled softly before I continued the banter with her while walking out of my room. Even though I hadn't said anything, I knew my mother was right.

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"Ira! Do you wanna watch a movie?" Asked one of my classmates.

I immediately knew why they were even asking me, it was because they would make me pay for everything. It was always like this, I only had friends due to spending money on them, none of them were truly there for me. I always thought maybe that's how friendships are..but I was wrong.

I understood that they only talked to me about going out somewhere or watching movies or going to restaurants. Besides that they never talked to me when I needed them. When I felt sad or low and needed someone to listen to me, they were always busy.

"No I'm sorry I'm busy tonight, You guys go have fun though" I said softly after a lot of efforts of saying the word 'No'.

I saw her rolling her eyes and walking away looking annoyed, making me wonder...what really is true friendship? And why did I never have a true friend?

When Nikhil came to pick me up from school later, he kept glancing at me time to time as we walked towards the mall where ny brother was with his other friends from college. Maybe Nikhil could tell I was upset about something.

The whole time I would glance at my brother and Nikhil, Nikhil teasing my brother by making high pitched voices which were supposed to be a girl's voice imitation, and making kissy noises. Is this true friendship?

My brother always shares most of his thoughts with Nikhil and..Nikhil is always there for my brother no matter what the situation is. I envied their friendship, even I wanted one.

"You're going to start what?" Asked Aditya while looking at me in amusement as I was sitting at the dining table.

I was back home now and I told my brother that I wanted to do the '16 Monday fast', in which you have to fast and give your offerings to Lord Shiva and many more, it is said that Lord Shiva always listens to his devotees and their wishes sometimes come true.

"Mhm! Mai karungi 16 somvar ka vrat!" I exclaimed happily while beaming.

(I will fast for 16 Mondays!)

"Thik hai thik hai, lekin kis liye? Kya mannat hai teri?" Asked Aditya while letting out a soft chuckle.

(Okay okay, but for what? What's your wish?)

"Woh mai nahi bataungi, lekin mai ache pati ke liye nahi kar rahi hoon" I said while clarifying the usual assumption of doing the 16 Monday's fast to get a good husband.

(I won't tell you that, but I'm not doing this to get a good husband)

My brother just gave me a thumbs up while secretly smiling before I happily ate my food. My wish was to get a true friend.

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"Nikita! Nikita listen!" I yelled while running upto my bestfriend in the school corridor.

"What? Look Anika, I'm a bit busy so can we talk later? Bye" Said Nikita before walking towards some other girl classmates of mine.

Nikita was a PCB student whereas I was a PCM student, so sometimes she would avoid me by making excuses of going to the biology lab or talking to other friends of her about biology.

I sighed softly before turning back and walking towards my classroom again, The humanities classroom was right next to ours and as I looked into their class, I saw all of them gathered together and chatting away happily.

There were boys and girls both, they were talking and having fun. Looking at them, I realised how many fake friends I had and what the true meaning of friendship was. I always felt left out with Nikita and she never really valued our friendship, and that my mother was right about her.

I walked into the science classroom to sit alone or read a book, The boys in my class were howling and shouting for no reason. Being an 11th grader is really a different experience for everyone.

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"Well she looked pretty upset earlier today when I went to pick her up from school" Said Nikhil while shrugging his shoulders at me.

"She really wants a good friend but I'm glad atleast she finally learned to say no to those 'Friends' of her" I said before chugging down my drink.

"That reminds me, Are you going to Bernadette's birthday party tomorrow night?" Asked Nikhil while making a drink for himself.

"No" I said while rolling my eyes at the mention of that girl.

Bernadette, I thought she was sweet at first but the way she's always trying to throw herself at me will someday make me throw her away somewhere.

"Now we know how Ira is learning to say no, it's in the genes" Commented Nikhil before laughing as I glared at him.

Even though this bastard son of a bitch can be annoying many times, he's still like a brother I never had.
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A/N:

Hello everyone, I'm really sorry for not uploading for such a long time. As I had mentioned, the previous month was very hectic for me and I couldn't get ideas about what I should write. Moreover, I felt too lazy and had no motivation to update.

But recently I have started reading more books and being a bit more productive, Like cooking at home sometimes or sketching or taking a walk on the terrace. This has been giving me more ideas, and I also talked to my bestfriend on call for hours today finally and felt motivated to write a chapter.

So, here it is. I hope you guys liked this chapter, please don't forget to vote and leave a comment before you leave. Remember to take care of yourselves and give yourself a bit time, Eat well and have a good day/night!