DISCONTINUED - How can you help me? - Troyler AU

31 - Ignorent asshole

Troyes POV-
Regretfulness swarms through my veins. I love him. I lay on my bed, starring at the ceiling. I did this act of terribleness to myself. I decided to come here, to help myself from getting hurt. I would've gotten hurt, at the sight of Tyler. If only I were to stay just a little longer, this entire situation could have been ignored.
Then, Tyde came in.
Tyde, as you may know, is a very cheeky little shit.
He's sarcastic, to say the least. Although, he does mean well.
"Hey Troye! How was the trip.. You came later then expected.." He paused.
"I know Tyde.. It's just.. Now is not the time."
He shrugged.
"I guess someone couldn't get enough of a little oak tree.. Huh?' He smirked.
He had known I liked Tyler. But what he didn't know what the accident that had happened.
I know it was wrong.
I know it was the worst possible time and place.
Yet, I took my anger out on him.
"The hell with you Tyde! HOW CAN YOU BE SUCH AN IGNORANT ASSHOLE! You have no idea about what had happened and IT IS NOT YOUR BUSINESS-' not realizing it, I had groped onto his shoulders and had been pushing him against a wall.
"YOU HAVE NO SAY IN THIS-' I held him by his collar and when he was on the wall, I gripped onto his wrists.
"HOW COULD HAVE I KNOWN! I DONT WANT THIS TO BE MY FAULT!!' Anger filled my voice.
'Troye.. p-please.. you're  hurting me." Tears dripped down his cheeks.
"I NEVER MENT TO HURT ANYONE! I DIDNT WANT ANY OF THIS TO HAPPEN!!
I'M SORRY!"
I fell to my knees.
"I'm sorry Tyler. I'm sorry. I'm so so so sorry-"
weakness and sorrow had me at tears.
I hear Tyde's footsteps trail out of the room, and he silently whimpers.
What have I become.
I know.
I am a pathetic, worthless, evil monster who could only bring hatred to the world.
I used to know all the right moves. I used to listen to all the secrets and all the problems.