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I woke up to the sound of my phone ringing and groaned. I just want to fucking sleep. "What." I snapped at the person on the other side. "Boy, you better answer my call like you got some fucking sense." I quickly sat up at the sound of her yelling through the phone. "My bad mama, I ain't get a lot of sleep and I thought it was somebody else calling me." "Mhhm, how was it last night?"
"It was great at first, but then she ended up getting a fever and I had to call India, so she ended up staying the night." The line went silent for a while but I could still hear her breathing. "Did yall have a talk yet." "No, I don't think that's gone happen anytime soon." "I'm not saying force her to talk, but yall NEED to have this conversation so yall can figure out how things will work with the baby."
"I know ma, I'll try." "Alright son, I love you." "I love you too ma."
After I hung up I went in the bathroom to take a quick shower and get dressed. It was around 9am so I figured she probably got up and left. As soon as I opened the door the smell of food hit my whole body. I guess she didn't leave.
"Here fat girl." I walked into the kitchen seeing India feeding Kai, while also trying to fix our plates. "I got it go sit down." I moved her out the way, finished making the plates, and sat them down at the bar.
"Morning." "Morning ma." I said before reaching over and grabbing Kairi. "Hey fat girl." I smiled at her and she returned one. My heart man. We both started eating in a awkward silence, while Kai just made small noises. "Damn is it good." She chuckled while watching me eat. "Hell yeah, you know I miss yo cooking mama."
"Yeah you're mom called me earlier and told me how you haven't been eating a lot lately." I smacked my lips. "She always running her mouth." "She's a mom David, its her job." "Mhmm, you ready to talk." "um sure, let me put her in her room." "Nah she good I got her, sit down." She slowly nodded while sitting back down.
"Look I know I messed up by lying to you, and my actions literally turned your world upside down. Please know that I did it because I love you with every bone in my body and I refused to let something bad happen to you." "I still got hurt, and my mama still d-died." Hearing her voice crack made me so much angrier at myself.
"I know that and I'm truly sorry, she was like a mother to me too and I cared about her a lot, but please understand that the only reason I was still doing that shit was because I had to make sure that the person who was trying to hurt you was out of the picture for good." "So if you handled it, how did my mother still end up dying."
"I don't know, and I'm sorry that I don't, but India I'm trying here, I know it's going to take some time for you to even look at me like you used to but if I didn't do what I did, neither one of yall would be in front of me right now." I know this is kind of fucked up, but I feel like it would've hurt just as much if the both of them died instead of her mom. "I don't think I'd be able to live with myself if something happened to yall."
There was that silence again. That awkward ass silence that we both sit in whenever we talk about our problems. "I understand you did it to protect us, but I just can't get over the fact that my mother is gone, because of some beef you had. I really think it's best for us to go our separate ways relationship wise, and just co-parent." Fuck. I knew it was a 99% chance that she wouldn't want to get back together but I was really counting on that 1%.
"Are you sure that's what you want to do?" "Yes Dave, I'm sure." "Ight." I stood up with Kairi still in my arms and walked to her nursery. As soon as I put her in her crib I heard the front door close.
I looked down a Kairi and sighed. "I wish we could've worked it out for you mama."
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Once he got up and walked away I could feel my body preparing for another break down. I quickly grabbed my purse and walked out of his place.
I want to forgive him but I can't, I want to make this work but I can't, I don't want to love him but I fucking can't.
Dave was and will always be the love of my fucking life but I can't seem to get over what he did.
If my mom didn't die when I found out I probably would've forgiven him by now. It's just the fact that it happened and that we still don't know who the fuck did it is what's getting me.
As soon as I got in the car I put my dad's new address in the gps. He couldn't bring himself to do back in the house without her being there so him and Issac are staying in a condo downtown.
Once I got that I quickly got out of the car and walked towards the door. I knocked twice and waited for one of them to come and answer the door.
The door opened revealing my father he didn't look so well. His eyes were red, and his hair was a mess. We stood there in the doorway just staring at each other before breaking into our own sobs and hugging each other.
After a few more seconds I heard footsteps and felt another pair of arms around me. I hate that we have to go through this, I hate that she's not here.
After a few more minutes of crying we finally pulled away and more to the living room. "I miss her man." Issac rested his head on my shoulder while looking out the window.
"I don't know what we'll do without her." I whispered while looking over at my dad who was staring off into space.
"She would want us all to be happy with or without her, she'd be pissed right now if she seen us like this." He said, letting out a small chuckle.
"Yeah I can hear her cursing now." "Yeah that woman was something else."
"You know what I can hear her saying right now?" I looked up at him and he was already making eye contact with me. "Please don't." I sighed already knowing what he was going to say.
"Did you talk to him yet." "I did actually, right before I came here." "And?" "And I told him it's better if we co-parent." Both of them just looked at me as if I said something crazy.
"Are you sure that's what you want?" "Why does everybody keep asking me this?" "Because it only sounds good because it hasn't happened yet." "Dad please elaborate."
"You want to co-parent, and that's good and all but what if you both start dating again, you'll have to worry about bringing two new people into your child's life if it ends up getting serious, are you prepared for that?"
