One day I just decided to go to Chicago face my fears and meet up with Xander, Les and them all. I bought the plane ticket and waited. As I sat there I fought an internal battle with my mind on whether I should really do this or not. Finally I chose to just do it. I knew it would be hard and I would be scared, but the end was worth it to me. I wanted to see them for real. I got onto the plane and sat in the window seat looking out upon the tarmac, wondering if they would like me.
The plane finally touched down in Chicago after a grueling two hour flight. Ok it may not have been grueling for others but it was for me. I was scared to death. Xander knew I was coming today but didn't know I had taken an earlier flight. Les knew I planned on coming there but didn't know I was going to come this day.
I got off the plane following everyone else to the baggage claim area. Grabbing the one duffel bag I packed to bring, I turned around not sure where to go from there. All of a sudden I was surrounded by people and began to panic. I started hyperventilating. I couldn't breathe. I was freaking out and my body started shaking. I made my way through all the people with my head down mumbling a sorry when I bumped into someone. I found my way to a back corner and collapsed onto the floor. I pulled my legs up to my chin and buried my head into my arms after crossing them over my knees.
I tried gulping down the fear that was overwhelming me. Then I had a thought, 'Xander! He will help me if I call him.' I pulled my cellphone out of the front pocket on my jeans. Hands shaking horribly I sent him a text. {Dadz... Um can u come get me?} I sat there trying to figure out how to breathe normally again as I waited for a return text.
Finally it came. {Get you? Where are you baby girl? What's wrong?} Hands still shaking I texted him again. {At the airport I can’t breathe I’m freaking out too many ppl...} again I waited for a reply. I didn't have to wait long. {Holyshoes! You're early!} {Wait... What happened? Why are you freaking out?}
I sent another text. {At the airport I thought I was ok, but there’s so many ppl here I panicked} It was a minute or two before the next reply came. {Which airport?} Sighing I texted back {Chicago}. Then a reply came, {Ok hold on baby girl I’m coming to get you}. I just typed back {Thanks dadz}.
I sat there waiting for him to get there. I still wasn't sure if I would panic more seeing him, but it was worth a shot when I was in a complete panic attack with all the people around me. I knew that I loved and trusted Xander as family even though I hadn't actually met him.
I sat in the back corner hoping no one saw me while I waited for Xander to get there. As I sat hunched up in my little back space, I didn't notice the man who was watching me. That is until he walked over. "Are you ok? Is there anything I can get for you?" I couldn't bring myself to look up at him but vehemently shook my head no. I finally found my voice to speak. "No thanks I have someone coming for me." I chanced a glance up and thought I recognized him but couldn't be sure. I looked back down just as quickly.
Picking up my phone I discreetly sent another text. {There’s a creepy guy standing in front of me. I’ma kick him in a sec}. I got a reply of {LOL. Will be there soon baby hold on}. The man wouldn't go away as I hoped he would. I closed my eyes for a second thinking maybe it might help me to control my panic attack. It wasn't helping. Not with the man standing so close to me.
Finally I had enough. "Would you mind standing somewhere else?" I asked him while staring at the floor. Not thinking he heard me because he didn't reply or walk away, I glanced up to see he was on a phone. 'Great!' I thought. 'This idiot is making things worse for me and he doesn't even have the sense to realize it.'
I cleared my throat. "Excuse me but kindly leave me be. There's a whole floor over there to stand on." He looked down at me and I wasn't sure if it was anger on his face or not but I wasn't chancing it. I growled low in my throat hoping he would get the hint and move it. He didn't. I sent another panic text to Xander asking if he could hurry. I thought to myself if this man doesn't leave soon I'm going to stand up and punch him square in the face. He was invading my personal space and I didn't like it one bit.
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Love Can Be Hard
RomanceShe has only ever known hurt and heartache, but when Reb finds love online of all places can she let go of her past and move forward? Fighting her internal demons and fears she sets out to meet Les the man who captured her heart and soul with just h...