Dan managed to calm down enough to wrap his damaged hand and eventually wander off to his next lecture.
He was slightly late, but wasn't scolded for it.
He took his notes in a numb haze and before he knew it, he found himself back in his room finished with classes for the day.
He stared blankly at his computer screen.
It was pretty late, but he wasn't tired in the slightest.
Dan eventually turned it off and crawled under the covers, trying to block out the negative thoughts with memories of Phil's lips on his.
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(Trigger Warning)
The rest of the week continued to be rough.
Today was Tuesday and Dan had class with Dugg again.
Dugg hadn't reported Dan for hitting him because Dugg could be pinned for bullying.
Dan was relieved because he didn't feel like dealing with being pulled into the headmaster's office.
Instead, Dugg decided to pick on Dan daily.
At first Dan ignored him, but the words slowly broke down his walls.
Today was a bad day in general however, because Dan woke up feeling the deep hatred for himself and Duggs insults only fueled the emotions.
The torments were echoing in Dan's head as he shuffled into his bathroom that evening.
He studied his appearance in the mirror and physically cringed.
I am the most pathetic thing to walk the face of the earth....How does Phil like me?
He felt as if he was hyperventilating and his normal distractions weren't working.
So after a bit more of mental fighting, he found himself turning to a darker method of coping, one he had done many times in secondary school.
His fingers gripped the tiny little blade he kept hidden in the bathroom shakily.
I'm so sorry
Cut.
His breath caught
I'm so so fucking sorry
Cut.
I'm disgusting
Cut.
Tears dripped down his face slowly as he welcomed the stinging on his left wrist.
He sighed and let his eyes close, enjoying the temporary release.
Moments later though, the relaxed sensation was gone leaving him feeling extremely guilty and even worse than before.
Dan quickly bandaged his wrist and stumbled back to his bed where Phil's hoodie was laying.
He pulled it on before curling up in bed, crying himself to sleep.
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Irrational nervousness bubbled in Dan's stomach as he approached Phil's door.
Every fiber in his being felt guilty about the cuts on his wrist that he created the prior night.
What if Phil ever found out?
How would he react?
Disgusted?
Would he hate Dan?
Dan wasn't sure and he never planned to find out.
He knocked somewhat softly on the flat door and nearly jumped when it suddenly swung open, revealing a brightly grinning Phil.
"Dan!"Phil shouted and jumped into the others arms.
Dan chuckled, hugging back just as tightly.
"You ready to go?" Dan asked as they pulled away.
"Yup. Just have to grab a jacket real quick."Phil dashed inside to grab a jacket before coming outside and shutting the front door.
Dan blushed as Phil grabbed his hand and held it all the way to the cinema.
"What film do you want to see?"Phil asked glancing at Dan.
"Um I don't mind. As long as it's not horror."
Phil let out a sigh of relief making Dan laugh softly.
"Not a horror movie person either?"Phil grinned staring at Dan.
"Not really. Some are okay around Halloween and just on occasion, but it's not my favorite genre. Specially 'The Blair Witch Project'."Dan shuddered at the thought and Phil squeezed his hand comfortingly.
They finally settled on a movie and picked up some snacks.
Phil got bucket of popcorn and a drink to share, and Dan bought himself some maltesers.
The movie was alright, though Dan had a hard time focusing because he got caught up looking at Phil most of the time.
It was the only time he could truly admire him without being a creep.
They had just left the theater when the familiar shop across the street caught Dan's eye.
"Phil!"Dan said suddenly, startling his blue eyed friend.
"Sit on this bench and close your eyes. Don't move, I will be right back!"Dan said in a excited rush.
Phil looked at him confused before doing as instructed and sitting down, shutting his eyes tight.
Dan rushed across the street to the anime shop that they had gone to when they first met in person.
It didn't take him long to locate his item of desire.
He handed the cashier the last of his money before hurrying back across the street to a waiting Phil.
"Open."Dan demanded with a grin.
Phil's eyes fluttered open and a smile graced his face.
In Dan's hands was the stuffed totoro.
"Oh my god!"Phil squealed and yanked Dan into his arms.
Dan pulled away with a grin as he handed the toy to Phil.
Phil stared down at it with a huge childlike grin before looking back up into Dan's stunning brown eyes.
"Dan...."Phil started shyly, making a bout of nervousness form in Dan's chest for the second time that day.
"Will you be my boyfriend?"
"P-Phil I-I," Dan gulped, his brain trying to process how to form words.
He quickly gave up and smashed their lips together.
"I'll take that as a yes."Phil chuckled, cuddling his totoro and kissing back lovingly.
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