Dan felt like his entire body was shutting down.
Phil muttered sweet caring words the entire way to Dan's dorm, but Dan's brain couldn't seem to process them.
The days events were replaying on repeat in his head and every fiber in his being was burning with the overwhelming urge to just disappear.
His wrists hurt horribly, making him question if they were broken.
He decided to test this by attempting to wiggle his fingers.
They moved, but the pain that accompanied the movement almost made him cry out.
"It's okay Dan,"Phil whispered once again, leading them inside.
It's really not. Dan shook his head the slightest bit causing Phil to frown.
The heat of his dorm didn't rid Dan of the chill residing in his bones.
It had been dark outside so Phil hadn't noticed the blood staining his arm, but that would soon be changed much to Dan's despair.
"Here sit down, I will be right back,"Phil sighed, guiding him to sit on his tiny couch.
Phil disappeared, leaving Dan to his thoughts.
What if he's going to react like Dugg did?....
What if he doesn't want to be with me anymore?....
What if I lose him?....
"Where are you hurt?"Phil asked reappearing in the room with a first aid kit from the bathroom.
Everywhere...
"Dan?"
I can't lose him.....
"Dan??"
Everything is just too much...School,Dugg,myself....I can't handle this...Everything would be so much better if I just...left......God I fucking love him, I just can't do this...
"Daniel."
Dan's hazy gaze was suddenly drowned in blue.
Such a beautiful shade of blue.
Dan would be completely happy to just get lost in the perfect blue forever.
But the blue only made the guilt grow inside his chest.
The first tear fell, soon followed by many more.
Phil's heart broke and he pulled Dan into a comforting hug.
"I'm so sorry,"Dan sobbed, ignoring the pain -physical and mental- as he clung onto Phil.
"Shush, It's okay.Everything is going to be alright."Phil pulled away and kissed the tears off of his boyfriend face.
Dan's heart threatened to burst as he stared up at him.
"Now, where are you hurt?"Phil asked softly, not breaking eye contact.
Dan blinked harshly and looked down at his hands trying to find an excuse to free him from this situation, but finding none.
It was time to be honest.
"I-I don't want to lose you,"Dan let out a shaky breath.
"I'm not going anywhere Dan."Phil smiled placing a warm hand to his cheek, swiping the stray tears with the pad of his thumb.
"Promise?"Dan asked sounding like a scared kid.
"Promise."Phil said crossing his heart.
Dan held out his arms and watched as Phil carefully rolled the sleeves up.
Hand shaped bruises stood out painfully on his swollen wrists and Dan flinched.
"Who?"Phil demanded trying to sound calming but failing to hide his anger.
"This guy named Dugg..."Dan whispered.
Phil opened his mouth to ask another question but stopped cold as he turned Dans wrists over.
His blue eyes stared unblinking at the damaged skin that was clearly self inflicted.
"A-And who did this?"Phil asked in hardly a whisper.
Dan's lips trembled and he couldn't hold in the small sob, his eyes squeezing shut.
"Me."
Everything fell silent besides Dan's crying.
God i'm such a fucking crybaby....I deserve to lose him, I did this to myself after all. I don't have the right to cry.
The silence continued as Phil cleaned the blood off and bandaged both wrists to protect them from getting further wounded.
".....A gay baby was just born again."Phil suddenly said, a ghost of a smile on his lips.
Dan let out a choked laugh.
"Dan...You're going to be okay. I'm not mad and i'm not really disappointed if that's what you're thinking... I'm just confused and I really would like for you to tell me everything. It kills me to see that you are hurting this bad. You don't have to tell me now, that can wait until morning. But just know that you won't lose me because of this. I'm going to help you, I promise."
As if to further prove his point, he moved closer and pressed their lips together.
At that moment Dan realized Phil really was perfect.
"I love you,"Dan whispered as they broke apart.
"I love you too."Phil sighed, lacing their hands together.
The grin on Dan's face made Phil's heart skip a few beats.
"C'mon lets get you in the shower."Phil said standing up.
Once Dan was clean and in dry clothes, they ate a fast dinner Phil had put together.
Things were slightly quieter than normal, but they still fell asleep curled up together like two matching puzzle pieces.
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Dan's body hurt and the moment he drifted into consciousness a giant sneeze exploded from him.
He groaned, sniffling slightly as he pulled the blankets around him tighter.
The sound of giggling made him crack his eyes open.
Phil sat next to him in bed, a hand covering his mouth as he stared down at Dan, laughing.
"Shut up,"Dan grumbled and sneezed once again.
"Sorry, you're just really adorable."Phil grinned.
Dan felt a small blush grace his face but a smile found a way to his lips anyway.
"If you're feeling up for it, I was thinking we could go out for breakfast."Phil proposed.
Dan nodded and slowly sat up, trying to ignore how horrible he felt.
Phil burst out giggling once again.
"What?"Dan demanded crossing his arms trying to look intimidating, but instead looking even cuter.
In response, Phil reached forward and ruffled his bedhead.
Dan instantly realized he was laughing at his hobbit hair and let out a loud groan, pulling away to shuffle to the bathroom.
"Awwww Dan don't be embarrassed! It's so adorable!"Phil cooed.
"Shutttt uppppppp."Dan whined, closing the bathroom door behind him.
-A/N: Hope you enjoyed this chapter. It's not as long as I would have liked, but I'm still proud of it. Oh, and i'm sorry if I hurt your feelz....kind of... alittle bit... >XD LOVE YOU.-Chemi
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