My Long Distance Lover - Kylia (BOOK 2)

Chapter 3

⚠️TW: MENTIONS SU!CIDE⚠️

Kylie's Pov

I wake up alone staring at the ceiling, just my underwear on with a blanket covering me. I rub my eyes, sitting up and looking around mystified. I look at the curtains swaying, sunlight beaming for split seconds. Someone comes from the bathroom. I turn around to look at them and smile.

"Good morning beautiful. Happy birthday, Kylie." Matt says. I chuckle. He starts to unfold his jeans and put them on.

"Good morning Matt. And thanks." I say as he puts his shirt on now. He comes over to me and kisses my forehead. I smile and get up to get my clothes back on. He goes downstairs and I go to the bathroom. I play some music as I use the spare toothbrush that Ruby always let me use whenever we used to have sleepovers. I assume that Matt used the other spare one. I see that I have 2 missed calls and 7 texts from my mum. I roll my eyes and look at them.

Mum

Mum - Kylie where are you??
Kylie?
Baby?
Are you at rubys??
Honey are you okay?
Kylie sweetie?
Kylie answer me

-missed voice call-
-missed voice call-

Me - mum dw I'm at rubys
I just had a sleepover at hers and my phone died

The only thing I know is that I am 100% talking shit right now. My phone did not die, I just didn't hear the messages. I don't know why. I was either asleep or... well, let's not get too graphic. Let's just say, I was busy with Matt.

Mum - thank God you replied Kylie!
I was so worried!
Okay, just please come back, not drunk or anything!

Me - Yeah sure...

I see her type but just turn off my phone and get out of the bathroom. I look in the mirror and see my clothes and completely remember something. Shit! You're mum is gonna kill you! She never saw you wear this slutty outfit when you went out. She'll know you went to her party.

I quickly go through the wardrobe and get clothes out. I change into them and go downstairs. I see Ruby and Matt talk, having tea. I sit down on the sofa.

"Happy birthday Kylie!" Ruby says to me and smiles. I smile back at her and mouth thank you. She sips her tea and clears her throat. "Hey, do you want anything to eat? I can make you something."

"No, I'm fine. Where's your mum and dad?" I ask her. She chuckles.

"They went away on a holiday last week, they're coming back next week so then we can all find out if I got into Utah College. Has yours come?" She asks me. I look down.

"No, not yet. But don't worry, it'll come soon." I say to her. I get up and put my shoes on.

"Where you going?" She asks me and gets up.

"I'm gonna go home now and eat there." I say to her and hold the door handle. Matt also gets up.

"Hey, I'll drive you." He says. I nod and open the door. He puts his arm around me and gets his car keys out of his pocket. He gets in the car with me and starts driving.

"Are you sure you don't want to eat anything? I'll buy it for you." He asks.

"Maybe some coffee." I say, my voice barely above a whisper. He nods and starts driving go Starbucks. I look outside the window, admiring the beauty of the sun in the morning, for once.

"Kylie?" Matt asks.

"Hm?" I mumble. I look at him and he looks down as we reach the drive thru. His leg starts to shake. I watch the long queue there is.

"What are we?" He asks me. Oh God, not this shit again.

"Um, I don't know." I say softly and look down. There is this part of me that just loves Matt, no matter what he does. I mean, he was my first boyfriend, first time. It just kind of feels weird not seeing him. I do like him, not platonically.

"Right, it's just I wanted to know because you know we-" He says but I kiss him, cutting him off. He kisses me back and goes back in his seat from the sudden movement. I pull away, cupping his cheek and smiling. He smiles back.

"Listen, Kylie. I really like you and I want to be with you again. Last night meant something to me, it had this feeling that I just never want to loose." He says to me. I kiss his cheek.

"I want to be with you too, Matt." I say and kiss him again.

After I get my coffee, he drives me home and I go inside. I see my mum sat at the table, her head in her hands. I go up to her.

"Mum, are you okay?" I ask her. She looks up at me and hugs me.

"Honey, I was so worried about you! Next time, just tell me where you're going please baby." She says and cups my cheek. "I was waiting to tell you something. You got a letter from Utah College!" She hands me an envelope. I take a deep breath before opening. I look at it and it says that I got in.

"I- I got in!" I say and mum hugs me again. Though, I sound excited, I'm not really. Utah is 9 hours away, which means I'm gonna have to live there and leave my mum here alone. I mean, what is she gonna do alone. If dad was here, it would've been way better. It's been months and I still don't understand why they had to split anyways. Thinking about everything just makes me want to curl up in a ball and cry. Life is honestly just a reason for me to kill myself. I mean who would care if I just OD? Or if I slit my wrists in the bathroom, jump off a bridge, get into a car crash? There's so many ways that I've been thinking of doing it. And it seems like no one would fucking care! All this college and lover stuff doesn't mean shit all to me anymore! Nothing fucking matters anymore!