Fated to You

Chapter 25 - Back 2 u

So, it was then, as she laid wide awake in her bed that evening, she realized that she indeed did let the mother fool her. Here, she ran away from the one girl that she's ever loved and not once thought that the mother could have had something to do with their break up. But then, she may believe it but how to make Becky see reason, she doesn't know. She wants Becky to open her eyes again and understand that her mother is nothing but a selfish warmonger.

Becky loves her. Becky didn't cheat. She's sure of it now.

She tosses and turns on her bed that evening. The evening that the mother of the woman that she's ever loved came back from the long business trip. She doesn't know of that yet but one thing for sure, once she finds out, that woman will have a piece of her mind. She looks at the clock, and it reads seven P.M. She did not show up at work today. Hera had called but she lied and said that she's sick. In truth, now that everything's out, she just doesn't know where she stands now with Becky. She doesn't know how things between them would be now.

Groaning enough, she gets up, wears a washed up jean, throws on a hoodie and up her hair in a messy bun and heads straight to Becky's apartment. She knows what she's doing is stupid and ridiculous because, even if things between them are somewhat clearer than before, she's still due to marry in two weeks. And the way things ended between them at the beach is still something to consider. Becky is probably mad at her for the suggestion but that's the only valid guess she could come up with to explain that weird letter that Becky kept talking about.

She made it. She feels her chest with the palm of her sweaty hand as she looks up the tall building. She knows it's wrong. She knows she shouldn't. But, the one thing that keeps her moving is the uncertainty of the reason why she keeps running to the one woman that breaks her heart in more ways than one. All she knows is that she wants to be with her. Always. All the time. No matter the time or place or situation. She wants to stand next to her and holds her hand and walks with her under the rain sharing the same umbrella. That's what she is certain of but why? she doesn't know.

Her heart is telling her to take the first step towards the entrance and she does take the step with reluctance, fright, and rigidly blighted with an eagerness of steel. She wants to be with her. Right now. She must be with her because that's how it should be. She wants to think about Sam but her reasons won't let her deal with morality right now. Right now, she couldn't give a damn about what's right. That's what she does. She takes the step and walks within the building. She takes another step, hurried this time, and approached the elevator. She presses the button to the last floor. She waits a bit but it felt like eternity.

Sempiternal, that's how she felt about her.

The elevator arrives and the door slides to the side so that she steps in. And she does with trepidation binding her heart to a more than enough physically felt pain. Her hands start to shake, unsteadily, as she reaches for the button to close the door of the elevator. She's about to see her in a second. What is she doing? What exactly is she expecting Becky to tell her? She asks her questions as if she has the answers to all of them. If Heng hadn't gone on that business trip with Pablo, he would have forbidden her to even have the gut to show up here. Especially knowing that it is the mother that drove that lengthy wedge in between them. That mother is no good news. But, she can't stay away from Becky.

She just can't. Her legs are stubborn enough to walk her to this building.

The elevator stops. Yes, it stopped. Because once that 'bing' sound resonates within the small cell, that's what it means right? She's on Becky's floor right now. She steps out of the elevator, question the living daylight out of all that is Holy, why she decided to be here tonight? She has to go back but as mentioned earlier, her legs are stubborn. They are leading straight to Becky's door... and she looks a complete mess. Is it that before walking out of her apartment she couldn't have looked within the mirror to check herself? What? Forgot to check, check, and re-check her face?