no matter what (b.beckham)

37.

GILLIAN'S POV
The party is already starting. Visitors are starting to come. I am just sitting here at the corner beside Rob.

I don't even wanna be here anymore. I want to go home and just lock myself there but Its my grandma's birthday and she's the best grandma ever so I need to be in her party.

I am trying not to care about Brooklyn and his new girlfriend but it hurts like fuck.

Wait who's his new girlfriend??

I hate myself so much. I hate him too but I cant blame him, I am the one who broke his heart. He loved me with all his heart and all I did was to break his heart.

I went to the kitchen to get some sprite.

I drink alcohol but I don't feel like drinking right now.

I was looking for Rob and I cant find him. Ugh, where's is he!!

He is the only one I want to be with tonight. I feel like everyone has a friend to hang out with, my brother invited his friends and my aunts and my mom and everyone invited their friends and i didnt invited any.

Rob didnt invite his friends too cause Rob is such a moody human being. I dont wanna say bipolar cause he'll hate me lol

// - if u watch kuwtk you will understand me in the rob part lol, anyway i know you think the chapter will end here but no lol

I am walking around the house and I cant even find him!!

When all of a sudden..

I saw the Beckhams.

Victoria, David, Cruz & Romeo.

Well, the party is kinda kid friendly so they can be here.

Anyway, Brooklyn's not with them so I thought he'll not come anymore which made me feel so calm.

Yaaas, he's not coming!!

I wont see him and his new girlfriend and that makes me feel so happpppyyy.

The party is starting to get wild and I am starting to have so much fun.

I started drinking alcohol.

I love it that my mom and even my grandma is just like my friends, they trust me, they allow me to do things like this, i love it so much that they trust me with all their hearts.

I was having toooo much fun when all of a sudden I saw Chloe Moretz.

"Rob, is that Chloe?" I asked him

"Yeah!" He said

"Is she Kris J's friend? Who invited her?" I asked

"I dont know, maybe?" He said

Its so obvious thats he's lying. I know he knows whats up

I pinched his arms so hard.

"Ouch!!!" He shouted so loud

"Tell me the truth!" I said

He is just staring at me.

"What!!!" I shouted acting like im gonna pinch him again.

"Okay! Okay!!" He shouted

"I am not sure but I think she's Brooklyn's girlfriend"

My heart literally stopped working.

Without even trying my tears are starting to fall but I'm controlling it.

I looked at her again and this time....

Brooklyn's with her talking to my grandma.

Brooklyn's arms are around her, they seemed to happy.

FUCK YOU.
FUCK EVERYTHING.

Rob saw me staring at them.

"Hey, its okay. Don't worry" he said, hugging me.

I let go of his hug and I ran inside the house.

Suddenly I bumped into someone.

I fell.

"GILLIAN!!!!!!" The guy shouted, so loud.

He sounds so happy.

I looked at him and saw Nick.

"Nick!!!" I shouted back.

I hugged him

"Its been a long time, dude!" He said

"Ew dont call me dude" I rolled my eyes

"Nothing changed. You're still a brat" he said, laughing

"Fuck you" i said

"So, why are you running again?" He asked

"Everytime I ran away I always bump into you" I said

He laughed

"So why are you running?" He asked again

I told him everything and he's just laughing at me.

"I am sick and tired of your baby relationship probs with that Beckham boy. So now, he already replaced you? Gillian, if its meant to be it will be. Do-" i cut him off

"Okay.... Whatever I understand! I dont wanna hear your life lessons" i rolled my eyes

He laughed

"Did you saw your brain? Or... Do you even have a brain?" He said, laughing.

"That's so rude!!!!" I shouted

He laughed even harder.

"Nick boy!!" My brother shouted

"Hey!"

They did that guy hug or whatever you call that

I went straight to Kylie's room.

I don't even wanna be in this party anymore.

I locked myself there and started crying.

I hate myself so freakin much. I wanna die.

Brooklyn already found someone who will make him more happy. Someone who will not give up on him. Someone who trusts him, someone who wont hurt him.

Shit.

...

Its 4 am and the party is over.

I thought everyone's gone so I went to the kitchen to get some water.

I was about to go back to Kylie's room when I bumped into Brooklyn.

I looked at him. His beautiful brown eyes.

Fuck it.

"Uhhh" he said

"Hey" i said, looking at the floor

Shit this is awkward

"Babe!" I heard someone shouted

Then Moretz girl showed up

"Ohhh" she said, raising her brows.

She wrapped his hands around Brooklyn's arm and Brooklyn looked at me with a "sorry" look.

He looks so uncomfortable.

"I gotta go." I said, trying to walk away

"Wait!" Brooklyn grabbed my hand.

// - what do u wanna happen next? suggest pls :-)