Just friends (Jeff the Killer fanfic)

Chapter 12:

I shook my head. This isn't real. I must be dreaming, yet I know I'm not. I watched, my eyes growing wide. I watched Jeff and my best friend talk, and I was horrified when I saw Jeff plant his lips against Jacob's.

I couldn't take it anymore.

A sob broke through my body and I shook as tears spilled out my eyes. Jeff was staring right at me, walking towards me.
"Get away from me Jeff!" I managed to shout through me sobs. His arms went around me but I swatted them away.
"Alex... I can explain-"
"No! Just get out of my life!" I shouted and broke into a run through the forest.  He wasn't far behind me. I couldn't stop the tears. Jeff grabbed my arm and I pulled away from him.
"Alex, please let me explain." He started. I shook my head at him.
" you don't need to. I know what you are." I said, glaring at him.
"Go on then. Say it." Jeff said.
"Your a freak!" I shouted. "Your a player! Your sick and disgusting! And worse of all, you go out killing people like its a sport. Let me be who I am. It's not like you can ruin my life anymore!" I turned away from him and walked away. He didn't follow me. He didn't even call back at me. Once I was a good distance away and I couldn't see him anymore, I broke down, leaning against an oak tree. I hated him. I hated Jacob. But worse of all,

I hated my life.

What was my purpose being in this life? Why can't I end it and be happy? Why do people always ruin everything? I wiped the tears from my eyes and set off towards my house.

I opened the front door. The living room was the same as it always was, with the cream walls and brown carpet. I sighed and walked upstairs to my bedroom. I settled down on my bed, wrapping myself in the duvet. The warmth comforted me, yet I was still depressed and distressed. I got out my mobile and phoned who I needed to hear from.
"Hey Alex." A cheery voice said.
"Hey, Abby. Can you come round?" I said quietly.
"Sure. What's up?" She asked.
"I'll explain. Just come over." I said and hung up. I borrowed into my duvet.

I must've fallen asleep, as I was awakened by knocking at me door. The door opened, and Abby's head popped round.
"My god Alex. You look awful." She said, coming towards me and giving me a hug. I cried into her chest as she held me, comforting me. I pulled away from her and she smiled slightly. I explained everything to her, from first meeting Jeff to seeing him in the woods. She sat there, taking it all in. When I was done she sighed and looked at me.
"I really don't know what to say, Alex. You must've fell so deep for him." I nodded. "But him being with Jacob?! Jacobs the straightest person I know. I just don't understand." She said. She looked at me, confused. I couldn't think straight. Too many thoughts were running through my head.
"Abby?"
"Yes, Alex?"
"If I left, who would miss me?" I asked her. She seemed taken aback by the question, clearly knowing what I meant.
"Alex, don't think like that. You'll be missed by everyone. Even if it ends your suffering, it will cause people to suffer more." She said, clasping my hand. "I know how you feel. I was once like that. But please, don't." She looked at me, her eyes pleading. I nodded, and stared out the window. Rain was pattering on the window, and the sky's were grey. I sighed, and saw Abby standing up.
"I'm sorry Alex, but I have to leave. Please call me, I'll be there for you." She said, pulling me into an embrace. She walked out the house and I went back upstairs. I thought long and hard about what I should do.

And I know now how.