With One Kiss

Five: Disappointed

"So did you wanna go with me?" he asked, our shoulders brushed a little. The sound of everyone talking on the bus surrounded us, the bus driver yelled at someone in the back. My mouth opened, and for a moment I wondered why I was speechless. I think I was more surprised than anything, I didn't expect him to ask me so simply and casually. "Sounds like fun," I managed to say, he grinned at me then gently grabbed my hand and squeezed it.

"Text me your address so I know where to pick you up." he said, I forced a small smile. "Of course." I replied, when we got off the bus and made our way to the class I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned to see Nick, a mischievous smile on his face. "You won't believe what happened," he started, and I continued to look down. "Tell me." I said, he was laughing a little but stopped. "Something wrong?" he asked, I shook my head. "No, everything's fine." I insisted, he grabbed my arm. "Did Charlie do something?" he asked, a little too loud for my comfort. I squinted my eyes, "He didn't do anything," I whispered, while looking around. Thankfully, no one was around.

The bell rang, "I gotta go. You need to get to class so you're not late again." I said, then walked away without even looking at him. I hated how easily Nick could read me, but it only made sense. We had been friends for so long, even I could easily read him too. I was at first worried that things were getting rocky with him and Dor, but after a couple days they had gone back to normal. She was still cheerful and sweet, and Nick was still Nick.

In Algebra, we had to work with our desk mates to solve ten different problems. I tried my best to stay focused but I struggled. I guess Harvey could see that too, because halfway through the second problem he asked me if I was okay. "You seem out of it today," he explained, I shrugged. "I think I'm just tired." I admitted, he tilted his head and for a moment it felt like he was scanning me. As if he was some robot that could detect lies, "I told you if you needed help with math you can ask me. I'm a straight A student when it comes to Math, it's my favorite subject," he said, as he leaned back in his seat. Of course he had to brag, typical jock.

I pursed my lips, if only you could help me out with my love life. I thought to myself. "Love life?" he questioned, I froze and felt my eyes widen. "Did I say that out loud?" I asked, slumping into my seat and covering my face. He chuckled, "You did actually, so what's going on with your love life?" he asked, I sighed. "This is so embarrassing. I think I just need to go home and sleep for the rest of my life." I said, he laughed. "I didn't know you could be so dramatic," he admitted. I crossed my arms on my desk and laid my head down on my right arm. Mr. Blackwood walked by, "Sit up Spellman, nine more problems to go!" he said, with an encouraging small smile.

Sheepishly, I sat up straight. "So tell me about your love life problems." he whispered, I gave him a look. He chuckled, "I'm also good at that kind of stuff too." he said, "You don't even have a girlfriend." I blurted out, then suddenly felt embarrassed again. What is wrong with me?! "Oh my God Harvey, I'm sorry. That was really rude of me, I just need to crawl underneath a rock and stay there forever." I quietly said, as I picked up my pencil. He smiled at me, "A lot of people think that, but can you keep a secret?" he asked, I looked at him and pressed the eraser against my cheek. "I'm listening," I said, "I actually do have a girlfriend, but she's in another country." he admitted, my eyes widened. "Why don't you tell people?" I asked, he shrugged.

"There's a lot of judgement when it comes to long distance relationships. My brother thinks that she'll just cheat on me or something, so I don't tell a lot of people." he admitted, I chewed at the inside of my cheek. I understood the feeling of not feeling supported by the people around me, I felt bad for Harvey. He didn't even have his brother's support. As much as I hated the feeling of being an only child, it probably sucks to know that your own flesh and blood don't support your happiness when it comes to love.

"I'm sorry to hear that," I said, as I attempted to finish the second problem. I was waiting for Harvey to ask again, instead he said, "It's okay, I'm happy and that's all that matters." I pursed my lips, I liked his way of thinking. At the end of the day, it all was up to me to decide. "Okay, don't make fun of me." I started, I glanced at his worksheet, he was finishing problem eight. "I wouldn't." he said, "So there's this guy named Charlie," I said, "Do you know his last name?" Nick asked, I shrugged. "No, actually." I admitted, and mentally slapped myself. Pru was right, I barely knew him but it's not like I didn't have time to. I told myself I would ask him what his last name was the next time I saw him.

"Isn't he a baseball player?" he asked, again I shrugged. He chuckled, "What do you know about him?" he asked, "He's funny, cute, and he rides my bus." I said, he tilted his head. "That's beside the point, the reason why I'm off today is because he asked me out to homecoming." I admitted, he nodded his head. "What's wrong with that?" he asked, I frowned a little. "It's the way he asked me, you know how everyone is asking their dates out in sweet, spontaneous and romantic ways?" I started, Harvey nodded his head. "I guess I expected for Charlie to." I quietly said, I looked at him to see his reaction.

"It's silly huh?" I asked, he seemed to be in his thoughts. "I don't think it is. How were things in your last relationship?" he asked, I chewed at the inside of my cheek, and began to erase parts of my paper. "Well?" He said, "I've never been in a relationship before." I quietly admitted, "Seriously?" he asked, I looked at him from the side and nodded my head slowly. "I'm actually surprised," he said, "Why?" I asked. "I mean, for a moment I thought you and Nick were dating for a little." I made a gagging noise, pretending to throw up at the thought, he chuckled. "Don't lie to me, I'm sure you had a crush on him at one point. He's a good looking guy," he said. I took a quick glance at Nick from the other side of the room. It seemed he did not want to work with his partner, because they were both quietly working on their paper's. It was as if he could hear my thoughts, Nick lifted his head and looked in my direction. Quickly I looked away, and focused my attention back on problem number three. I didn't finish problem two, but decided to go back to it later. "He's okay," I finally said. Harvey laughed. "Right, okay. I'm straight but I can admit when a guy is good looking." he said, I wouldn't allow Harvey to see my expression. I don't know why I was worried that he would find out about my past crush just by looking into my eyes. "I mean, it also surprises me because I always thought you were cute." he admitted, so I turned to look at him. "I mean that in the friendliest way, I'm happy in my relationship. I'm just saying that I'm surprised there weren't any other guys who tried to hit on you or ask you out." he admitted, as he finished problem nine.

"No one has ever asked me." I admitted, "Well maybe Charlie will be the guy," he said, with a grin. I hope so, I thought. "And just so you know Sabrina, things don't always happen like they do in the movies." he admitted, I frowned a little. "Sometimes they can, if you're lucky." he added, "I know that Harvey was just being honest but I hoped that I was lucky. I wanted to find the type of love that mom and dad had. Would it be possible?

"Is it like the movies for you and your girlfriend?" I asked, "Yeah, it's like that with me and Melanie." he beamed. "Melanie and I," I corrected him, he just smiled. "What country does she live in?" I asked, he grinned. "Canada," he said. I checked to see what problem he was having. He was finishing up problem ten, I looked away quickly because I didn't want him to think I was trying to copy him. I hated to admit it but I was impressed with how fast he solved the problems, a part of me wanted to ask for help while the prideful part of me wanted to do the problems on my own.

"I'll send you a picture of her later." he said, "She's as beautiful as a rose." he added, then placed his pencil down. "Her personality is like a pink rose though," he said, looking out the window. I sighed quietly, and hoped that one day someone would think of me like how Harvey did with Melanie. To have someone love you until their last breath, just like mom and dad did before the car accident.