she doesn't love me

the hell she ate

Ariana's pov
We get home and both girls go to their bedrooms. I really don't know what to do. Of course what I want is to spank the hell outta them. Specially Alison, is she crazy getting involved in a fight? A physical fight?
- OKAY GIRLS, YOU DO NOT LEAVE YOUR ROOMS IF YOU KNOW WHAT'S GOOD FOR YOU. YOU WAIT TILL I GO TO YOU. - I yell in the hallway, for like the seventh time, before going downstairs.
- Hey babe! - Dalton comes in smiling and I smile at him.
- Finally! - I say and kiss him.
- Wow, is this all, you know, sex desire? - He wiggles his eyebrows and I laugh.
- No! Actually, I'm not sure you're gonna like what this is. Well I'm sure you're not gonna like. - I say sighing.
- What happened?
- School called me, Alison got in a physical fight. I went there to pick her up, Y/n was missing in class. Turns out she was ditching class with Sophia and Autumn. And now I don't know what to do! - I say frustrated. I've never been in a situation like this one before.
- Physical fight? Ditching class? What the fuck, are they going crazy?
- Right? - I say huffing. - Well I gotta do something I just don't know what. Can't you like, deal with the punishments this time? - I ask but soon I remembered he's soft like a puppy.
- Sur-
- Nope. - I cut him off. - No need. I'm good. Imma deal with them. They'll be super fine. They just won't be able to sit! - I say while walking towards the stairs.
- Ariana wait! Don't be too hard on them. - He says and I nod.
- Don't worry I was kidding. They will be able to sit and if not it's fine cause I forgot to inform you, both of them are suspended for the rest of the week.
- WHAT? - He yells. None of us have ever been in a situation like this one.
- Yes Dalton, they're suspended for the rest of the week. I was thinking we could actually travel to Cancun or someth-
- Are you crazy Ari? They get suspended and we go on vacation?
- That's why I'm gonna spank them, that's their punishment, then it's done and we can go on vacation. - I say smiling innocently. - Alright lemme go. - I say and run upstairs. Alison first or Y/n? Definitely Y/n. Alison's gonna take me a lot of time. I enter Y/n's room and see her sleeping. What the actual fuck? How can she sleep right now? I growl walking towards her and pull her blanked out of her bed.
- MOM! - She yelled, an angry expression and I chuckle.
- You're angry? Okay let's see. Uhm, you're suspended for the rest of the week, because you were ditching class. You know you're in trouble, I come here, and you're peacefully sleeping? You really think I was not gonna punish you?
- Yes I was just ditching class. Alison's the one who got into a cat fight.
- That you kinda throw her in. - I say and Y/n bites her lower lip. - Yeah. Doesn't excuse what she did but... Wanna do it the easy way or the hard way?
- Mom...
- Don't "mom..." me. - I say grabbing her arm and making her stand up. - You're getting 20.
- But-
- No buts. - I sit on her bad and lay her down on my lap, I put her skirt up and give her the punishment. By the time I'm done she's sniffing but not crying so much. She stand up and I pat on my lap for her to sit on it. - You cannot ditch class Y/n. If you do it again pray that I don't find out cause it won't be just 20 soft spanks. Cause you know damn well I did not use my full force on you. - I say and think 'I'm saving that for Alison'.
- I'm sorry mommy. - She cries and hugs me. I hug her back and rock her till she stops crying.
- If it makes you feel better, we're going to Cancun since both of you are suspended.
- Really? - She asks excited and I nod smiling, kissing her head.
- I'm gonna go deal with your sister alright? - I say and she nods. - Now you can do what you want, just don't get in trouble.
- I won't mama. - She says and I blow her a kiss before leaving for good. I sigh before going inside Alison's room. When I get inside I kinda regret coming in here with my belt on, cause she's literally drawing on the wall like a 5 year old, she knows how much this pisses me off.
- ALISON, REALLY? - I yell making her jump.
- Well you told us not to leave our rooms like a thousand times, I wanted to draw and I didn't have any paper. - She says and my eyes goes wide.
- Alison, your notebooks? - I ask swallowing hard.
- They have lines! This part of the wall is just, white. Nothing else on it.
- Girl you just made your punishment worse. - I say going towards her while taking off my belt. She backs away but she knows it's useless. I grab her and give her I don't know, around 20 spanks but I'm using a belt and my full force. She deserves it. She's being my worst nightmare lately. I comfort her too even though I'm so mad about the wall and then tell her the news that we're going to Cancun.
- Well, at least that... - She says sniffing and I chuckle.
- Be happy, your butt's not red so you'll be fine wearing one of your swimsuits. - I say and she smiles.
- Mom did you punish Y/n too? Cause she also did something wrong.
- Of course Ali. I'd never just punish one and let the other go unpunished. - I say and then just think about how many times I took my anger out on Y/n, those weren't just punishments. - I gotta go baby, gonna make dinner. - I lie and kiss her forehead before leaving her room. I ask Dalton to order or cook something and go to my room. Those memories, always haunting me. I was so wrong.

Flashback
- Mommyyyy! - Y/n at her now 4 years old age yells crying towards Ariana.
- What? - Ariana asks already angry. Can't Y/n see she's working on her laptop.
- I fell and hurt my knee. - Y/n says and Ari raises an eyebrow.
- Why did you fell? - Ari asks standing up and Y/n frowns. Her mommy was not like this, she usually would've hugged her already. - Y/n, why did you fell? - Ari kneels down and faces Y/n.
- I was running with Tulusy outside. - Y/n cries and makes grabby hands. Maybe her mom is stressed out but she's gonna help her right?
- What did I tell you about running? - Ariana asks while picking Y/n up and taking Y/n to the kitchen.
- Not to. I'm sorry mommy. - Y/n sniffs and Ari puts Y/n on the counter. Ariana gets the alcohol, gauze and a bandage. She cleans the wound without warning making Y/n cry more. - MOMMY!
- No don't even start Y/n! You're old enough to know what rules means, and to follow them and when you don't, I don't care how bad you're crying, you're still getting punished. Go to your room and wait for me there. - Ari says after she puts Y/n on the ground.
Y/n looks up not moving. That's not her mommy. She's been weird lately and angry all the time. Maybe she's tired? Alison's 2 now and she's giving a lot of trouble.
- Oh you're not moving? Fine. - Ari says picking Y/n up who's now a crying mess.
- Ari? What's going on? - Dalton asks when they meet upstairs.
- What's going on is Y/n is not following my rules. She got hurt cause she was running with Toulouse.
- So? She got hurt, you don't make her get, more hurt! - Dalton says kinda shocked. Her wife has definitely changed lately and it's not for the best.
- You know what Dalton? Y/n's not your kid. So shut the fuck up and lemme raise my child well. - Ariana says and goes to hers and Dalton's bedroom.
- MOMMY! - Y/n yells crying, kicking her feet scared. She doesn't understand what's going on by now, she just knows it's not good.
- Suck those tears Y/n. - Ariana says and Y/n looks at her confused. What does that mean? Her mommy never told her that. - I mean, stop crying. - Ariana says and Y/n tries to stop. Now she's just sniffing. - Good. Cause I'd hate to start spanking you when you're already crying.
End of flashback

No one's pov
Ariana jumps up on her bed. She was having a flashback, but she was kind of sleeping? She remembers that day. Was maybe the first day she went to extremes. Ari feels tears running down her cheeks and she knows she deserves it. She fucked up, traumatized her first born in, she doesn't even know in how many ways but she did.
- Baby? - Dalton comes in as Ari wipes her tears. - Why are you crying? Did Alison give you a hard time?
- No Dalton. I had a flashback of that day... Y/n was 4, she fell. You told me not to hurt her more but I did it anyway. - Ariana starts crying harder and Dalton hugs her.
- Hey, what matters is the present isn't it? You're better. - Dalton.
- How many times I left her with my mom for weeks just so I wouldn't hurt her? I knew I needed help back then. I just didn't wanna get help. - Ari says looking down ashamed.
- Ari, babe...
- No Dalton it's fine. You can say how badly I fucked up cause that's true. And then now I punish her for ditching, half a day of class? - Ariana laughs out of anger. She's angry with herself.
- It's a normal punishment. Well kinda normal? Idk. What I do know is if Y/n ditched class, and Alison got in a fight before, you'd twist it, make everything be fully Y/n's fault and hurt her, and Alison wouldn't even lose a privilege. Don't you think you're better?
- I am. But what I've done, it's haunting me. - Ari says looking straight as if she's hypnotized. She fucked up real bad. She's wondering if Y/n isn't depressed or something. After everything Ariana put her through it's hard to believe Y/n's mentally stable. - There's no way she's mentally stable. She's doing something.
- What? - Dalton asks confused.
- Did she eat dinner? - Ari asks and Dalton shakes his head. Ariana is now remembering she took Y/n lots of times to the doctor because she's too skinny, and she'd get anemic often. The stupid doctor, maybe because she was 10 when she first took Y/n to an appointment regarding her weight, he just said that was how she was. But then Ariana remembers a year when she was normal, healthy weight, never anemic. And now for a year she's back to really skinny again. She's been losing weight day by day now.
- She said she ate before I got home. - Dalton says and Ariana laughs, a sarcastic, dry laugh.
- They weren't allowed to get out of their rooms until you got home. I was downstairs all the time. The hell she ate. - Ari says and takes a deep breath.

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Sooo, I hope you guys are enjoying. Obviously, following this chapter I have a lot of different ideas, so if you have an idea as well, maybe something you'd like if I add, please let me know! ❤️