she doesn't love me

back home

Y'all are probably wondering why I'm back just now. I saw some comments asking if I was okay, from like, two years ago. I wasn't okay, and I'm still not 100%. I was fully, deep into eating disorders, in and out of hospitals. Last year, February 2024 I was diagnosed with adrenal insufficiency, and I'm still not adjusted to the treatment, however I'm doing way better and now I wanna be able to make y'all happy with this book. Idk who's still here, comment please to let me know, I wanna know if it's worth it to update this book. And I hope you enjoy it and if you have any ideas please tell me and I might use it, cause I wanna do something I know y'all are gonna like! <3

Next day

Ariana's POV

I wake up and see Y/n peacefully sleeping next to me. I pick up my phone and see that it's 11:30 am. Wow. We slept for more than 10 hours...
I look over at Y/n and run my hands through her hair. Soon she opens her eyes yawning and look at me.
- Good morning bubs
I smile at her and she smiles back, gasping when I show her the time.
- Wow we sure did sleep for a long time...
I chuckle and kiss her forehead before asking her what she wanted to do. She didn't know so I thought why not take her to Disneyland?
- Ok bubs get ready, we're leaving in 30 minutes okay?
- Kay mom.

... later

We're now at Disney. We already went to most of the rides and I can see she's getting tired, and so am I. She wants to take pictures with the princesses so we go there and take them before going to a restaurant to eat something.
- Hey mom! I'm gonna post this picture of us with Aurora okay?
- Yes sweetie, go ahead!
We smile at each other and she posts the picture. She finishes eating her fries and we head back to the house.
I sigh as I sit on the bed while she's showering. I think about what she said, about her asking me why I did what I did and I honestly can't tell... I guess she just made me remember Mac and all I wanted was to completely forget him.
But she was just an innocent, sweet little girl. Mac wouldn't approve what I did to her. No one would. If my mother knew what I did when she was little, she would probably whoop my ass back then.
I shrug my thoughts off as I see Y/n coming out of the bathroom already dressed with some comfy clothes.

Alison's pov
Mom just went to Florida with Y/n, and that's so unfair cause I also deserved to go! I'm so mad, my dad's trying to get me to have fun with him but it's not the same... it's not Disneyland and mom's attention it's not all on me. I want both my parents attention on me and only me, and Y/n to get in trouble... when they think she hurt me I always get a treat and that's my goal... or if I do something wrong and blame her, they always believe me and at least I'm not the one who gets punished...
- Hey, Alison? - Dad says entering the living room where I was watching tv, well, more like thinking about mom and Y/n...
- What? - I answer irritated
- Can you at least be respectful? - He asks sitting down next to me.
- Sorry... I'm just, mad...
- Yeah I've noticed... Every single activity with you hasn't been enjoyable, you're acting like a brat, and none of my daughters are brats.
- Y/n is...
- Alison, stop it. I'm sick of it.
- It's the true though...
- No it's not and if I hear one more word coming out of your mouth that's a bad comment about your sister, you'll be grounded! Do you understand? - He asks but I keep quiet. - I said, do you understand? - He asks me glaring at me.
- Yes. - I say rolling my eyes but he just shrugged it off.
- So what do you wanna do tomorrow?
- I wanna go to Disneyland! See mommy!
- We're not doing that. We could go to Six Flags. You love that place. - He says and I think about it. Yeah, soon mom and Y/n will come back, and I'll plan something.
- Okay. That's cool!

Y/n's pov
- Hey Y/n, do you wanna talk about, everything that happened? And figure out how to fix things and be a family? - My mom asks. Honestly, I don't know if I want to. Well, I do but, I don't know if I wanna go back in time and remember everything, and how can we fix things and be a family now?
- I do but, maybe tomorrow? I'm tired now.
- Of course. Take your time babydoll. Let's rest. I'll order dinner soon, what do you want?
- Uhm, can I have pizza?
- Sure! - She says smiling.
- I'll take a nap on the couch while it gets here. I'm really tired. - I say and lay down on the couch who's more like a bed when you open it.
- I'll order and then lay down next to you until it gets here. Wanna hold my babygirl. - Mom says kissing my cheek and I smile.
I close my eyes but I can't sleep. If it wasn't for Alison, we could be a family. I'd make an effort to get along with her even after everything she did to me, but, I know she doesn't want that. And honestly I'm afraid that she'll do something so dad's and mom's attention goes all back to her and there won't be anything left me. I'll be forgotten. Soon I feel my mom laying down next to me and kissing my forehead.
- It's gonna be here in 50 minutes. - She whispers but I pretend I fell asleep. - Y/n I know you're awake.
- How do you know that? - I whisper back opening my eyes.
- Because if you were you'd probably be curled up. - My mom says and chuckles and I smile slightly. - What are you thinking about? - She asks caressing my hair.
- Nothing... - I say, not knowing it was obvious I was lying.
- Baby please don't lie. We came here exactly so we could talk and sort things out.