Im trying?•••Magcon fan fiction•••

Chapter 16 Should i stay or should i Jump?

{}{}Zendays POV{}{}

Im still in the hospital, a couple hours ago Hayes explained and i havent stopped thinking about him. My thoughts get interrupted by the doctor.

All the guys wake up to the door being opened. The doctor looks at all the guys with a surprised look. But began to speak "Mrs. Espinosa" I loved my last name, "Some of your umm.. cuts are infected. Your perfectly fine if you could clean up your cuts everyday." he gives me a reassuring nod and then leaves the discharge papers for Matt to sign.

"I WANT TACO BELL!!!" I scream as we walk out of the hospital, earning some stares and laughs from the boys. The boys nodded there heads or say Yas!

"Can i please have a nacho grande and Mt dew freeze pweese?" I ask Matt. He lets out a surprised sigh.

Hayes hasnt talked to me since we left the hospital. I wish he would just make eye contact or speak to me.

Ughh!! I fucking hate my life!!!

I get stares from everybody. "Did I say that out loud?" I sheepishly ask. I get a couple of nods. And then Hayes gives me a sympathetic look. Im done i cant do it anymore!!

Since we were close to the Griers house and i had a key. I just ran and ran to there house. I sprinted upto the boys bathroom. Looked for my friends, Mr. Razor and baby Pills.

I grab my razor, i decide not to do it on my wrist but on my thigh. Nobody would see that and i can have more room to do my beautiful work of art.

While I work i let my tears fall. I finally finished. I go look at the pills and back at my worthless self. Not yet. I thought as i put them safely back in there little home [bottle].

I just sit in there bathroom. Until I hear the front door open. I can hear people. Ugh people. I just decide to sit there but making sure im covered up on my thigh. I want to show my artwork but not right now.

I hear Shawn say "Imma go to the bathroom brb!!" He opens the door to me, a tear stained, worthless, mess up.

He looks down at me then he sees a pretty red painted paint brush {bloody razor} the he sees the babies {pills} in there bottle next to me. He reaches for my wrist that was clean. He looks at me in disbelief. He lays his head on my thigh. I wince at the pain.

He looks at me and down at my thigh. I hurry up and run down a hallway. Without anybody following me!! Thank god!! I walk over to the banister and look down the steep drop. I slowly get up to sit on the railing with my feet dangling down and my hands grasping the railing. I look up to the ceiling hoping for answers. i couldnt keep it in any longer. My tears kept falling down my pale white face. I start to mumble a song that i wrote.
{real song by one republic}

I lived

Hope when you take that jump
You wont fear the fall

I hope when the water rises
You built a wall

Hope when the crowd screams out
They're screaming your name

Hope if everybody runs
You choose to stay

Hope that you fall in love
And it hurts so bad

The only way you can know
You give it all you have

I hope you dont suffer
But take the pain

Hope when the moment comes
You'll say

I~! I did it all~!
I~! I did it all~!

I owned every second that this world could give

I saw so many places the things that i did

Yeah with every broken bone,

I swear
I lived

Hope you spend your days
But they all add up

And when that sun goes down
Hope you raise your cup

I wish I could witness

All your joy and all your pain

But until my moment comes

I'll say

I~! I did it all~!
I~! I did it all~!

I Owned every second that this world could give

I saw so many places the things that i did

Yeah with every broken bone

I swear
I lived

Woooaahh~!
Woooaahh~!
Woooaahh~!

Ohhhhh~!
Ohhhhh~!

I swear with every broken bone I lived

I~! I did it all~!
I~! I did it all~!

I owned every second that this world could give

I saw so many places the things that i did

Yeah with every broken bone

Woooaahh~!

I swear
I lived

Woooaahh~!

I swear
I lived

Woooaahh~!

Oooohh~!
Oooohh~!

My vision was getting more blurred. I decided i wasnt ready just yet.. I got up to see a teary eyed Magcon.

"H-h-how long have you been there?" I asked nobody in particular. "The whole time," they said. I was pulled into a group hug. The only thing that was missing was another pair of arms.

I want to go talk to him. I thought before being pulled out of my thoughts. Literally pulled into Hayes' room. By the one the only Tay Tay. He can read my mind!! We might be twins.

Hayes looks at my teary face. Damnit why does he do this to me. Taylor already walked out and shut the door.

Me and Hayes just starred into each others eyes until we started to lean in. It was only a 5 second kiss but my stomach had a whole titanic full of animals swirling around in my stomach.

We smiled at each other. I didn't know what we were but tbh I didn't really care at that momenent

After awhile if smiling at each other he asked what was killing me. "Hey um Z, w-what are we?" "Whatever you want us to be?" I try and say sexy but failed horribly.

He let out a chuckle and the asked what I hoped he would for awhile. "Zenday Hestia Espinosa would you please do the honor of being my girlfriend?" He tried saying confidently. "Yes" as I scream and jump into his arms.

We layed down on his bed, Me fidgeting with his hair. "Were you really gonna umm jump?" He asked rubbing my left thigh. {thank god not my right with my fading masterpiece}
"I really didn't know." I say barely audible.

He looks at me with a single tear seeping out of his eye. He lays his head on my lap. Ouch ouch!!!!! I mentally scream I think....

🍄🍄🍄🍄🍄🍄🍄🍄🍄🍄🍄🍄There Shroooms!! Wow im weird!!!Hey my wittle trwee huggwers!!! Cliff hanger kind of? Zayes is back!!! I almost cried oops! Me and my BFF made a co-account called.
Thegumballsistas you should totally read the story we started!!! Here's our description of our account:

This is a co-owned account of 2 best friends/sisters!!! One is obsessed with fanfic the other with bad boys!! Ones awkward with boys and only has crushes the other one goes for what she wants!!! Ones the unpopular one who sits in the back and gets bullied the other one saved her life with just one simple phrase "im here for you" and that is why were sisters!!!