When The Lights Go Out [on hold eue]

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A/N: Heyyy. this is my second book that im writing and yes i am still writing my khonnie fan fic. this will still be horrible. *cringe*
okeyy. yeah anyways..

TRIGGER WARNING:

Josh

When the bell rang for 3rd, I shoved all my books into my crummy black backpack, as I ran to lunch. I quickly sprinted to the cafeteria. Right when I went to open the doors, someone grabbed me by my hoodie and slammed me against the lockers on the opposite side of the now deserted halls.

"What the fuck do you want this time, Devon.." I sighed, shivering at the name.

"Don't even bother asking anymore, loser." She said. Devon, Anne Williams, the alpha of the school. Even the principal was scared of her. The only person that she didn't scare completely, was the music teacher, Mrs. Batson.

She slammed me against the lockers again and again until she got tired. "Eugh. I'm actually getting tired of beating you against the locker." She sighed. "Jack!! Sam!!" She yelled. She started telling them what to do to me as she held my chin up and slammed me against the lockers, one more time.

"Hold em" She groaned.
Jack suddenly rushed over and pinned me down as Sam took a swing to my face.
I cursed under my breath, a little too loudly, apparently. "She started abusing me with words. This is the worst she's ever done.
Jack stopped pinning me down, knowing I couldn't even stand anymore. I slid down and attenpted to block my face, but failed. Many punches, and kicks later, I was all bruised up and bloody. They still didn't give up, unfortunately. I bit my lip as i received an excruciatingly painful kick to my jaw and ribs. One more punch, and everything went black. All I could hear was Devon saying,
"Go kill yourself, fag.
No one wants you. You are pointless. You are useless. You are broken. And you are a pathetic, little white boy emo piece of trash.
Just cut- no. Cut deeper.
Cut deeper, you emo douche bag.
It'll all be over for you..."

Her words kept flowing through my mind, as I was sitting in darkness. Wait..?! But I hear a faint water noise. I soon realise that I am blindfolded. I quickly remove the blindfold and look up, and see that they were trying to overflow the bathtub..! I was in about 2 feet of water! How long have I been here? I wade out and go into the halls and notice that it was pitch black outside. I find my backpack and get my phone and check the time. 10:57 "SHIT!" I yelled, grabbing my backpack and sprinting down the street. I walk for about 10 minutes, until I reach the 3-story, brick house. I open the gates and slide my key in and unlock it quietly. I walk over to the sign-in sheet, and sign:
NAME:
Josh Dun
TIME:
11:07
REASON (If you were late [past 7pm])
Walked to the park and fell asleep after school

I always regret what my excuses are. But I'm not in the mood to move right now, even if I have to deal with this right now.

I put on a muscle tank and some shorts and go to the bathroom. I make sure that no ones in there, and I brush my teeth. I put the toothpaste in the medicine cabnet and rinse my toothbrush under the cold water and put in the holder.

"Cut deeper. Cut deeper. It'll all be over for you. Just cut deeper you emo douche." Those words kept swirling through my mind.

I quickly grab the razor I hid under the sink and sit against the door. I look at the slim piece of metal and decide to do it.

I turn my arm over and touch the cold metal to my skin. I glide it over my skin, slicing it open. No blood pours out. I do it again, farther up, and deeper. Wincing in pain, I lightly slam my head back on the door. I hear footsteps and knocking on the door. It was Allie. I open my eyes, wide, when I realise it was Allie. She was the only friend that I had had here. She helped me through the bullies at school, and at the home. I zone out of my thoughts and go back to cutting. She keeps banging on the door, knowing it was me. She got one of her friends and she started to try to open it, but I was leaning against it too hard. I slice a little farther up again, and a lot deeper this time, screaming in pain, and passing out, as I heard Allie screaming, and the sirens.