Broken and Bruised-Kian Lawley/O2L

Chapter 15

"Laura no." Kian yells.

He grabs my waist and yanks me back. We fall to the ground with me on his lap.

"Noooo." I scream.

"Shh Laura it's ok." He says holding me close.

Soon I could hear the other boys running closer. Everything just stopped. I didn't wanna move or do anything. Kian slowly picked me up and slowly started walking me to the car.

I'm placed in the car and Jc got in to drive. I stared out of the window and just watched everything go by. I wanted everything to go bye bye but for some reason nothing wants to work out for me.

"Laura we are getting medication for you ok." Jc says.

"Whatever." I mutter.

Next thing I know we are in the house and I am being sent to my room. I crawl into my bed and just throw the covers over me.  I could hear the boys talking but I didn't bother to listen in to what they were saying.

All I took in was that someone was going to have to watch me 24/7 until I am on the medication and I am all better. But that's never gonna happen and we all knew that.

I look down by my feet to see Kian sitting there. He crawls into the bed beside me and gets underneath the covers. He doesn't say anything, he just scoots closer to me and wraps his arms around me.

"Thank you." I mutter.

"Anything for you." He sniffles.

We just fall asleep in each others arms not bothering to talk. we both understood what was going on.

Once he was in a deep sleep, I slowly wiggled from his grip. I head into the bathroom and get my sharpest blade from the small box I had. I sit in front of the toilet and hold my wrist over the seat. I slide the blade across my skin and let out a small deep breath.

"I missed you." I whispered.

I watch the blood run down my wrist and watch it go into the toilet. I soon flushed it and tended to the cuts on my wrist. I placed a wet towel over it to stop the bleeding. Once it did, I threw away the towel and wrapped my arm. I pulled back down my sleeve and went out of the bathroom.

Kian was still asleep on the bed and I smiled. I walked over to him and kissed him on the cheek. I headed downstairs to the other boys. I walked into the kitchen and grabbed a thing of water. No one was home but me and Kian.

I thought about leaving but I needed more of a plan than that. So I decided to just sit outside in the sun. It felt amazing and I loved it. I let my feet dangle into the water.

"Laura what's so wrong to make you wanna do this?" Ricky says from behind me.

"I have no idea. There are voices in my head Ricky. I want all the pain over with." I sigh.

"With time it will be. Just take the mediation." He begs.

"You don't understand. That's not how it works." I laugh.

"Then how does it work?" He asks.

"Once you have depression, it never goes away. It's like you have signed a contact to Satan."