YOU WILL LET HIM FLOOD YOU WITH HIS WORDS
YOU WILL TRY NOT TO LISTEN
PEOPLE LIKE HIM NEVER STAY
MAYBE ITS THE MUSIC YOU LISTEN TO OR
THE DARK IN THE COLD SKY BUT
YOU WILL BE AT HOME ALONE ONE NIGHT AND
THE THOUGHT OF HIM WILL
HIT YOU LIKE A CONCRETE BRICK
YOU WILL DISTRACT YOURSELF WITH A HEADACHE AND TAKE TWO ASPIRINS
BUT ALL YOU ARE LEFT WITH IS A FEELING OF
SOMETHING TOO SHALLOW TO DECIPHER
AND THE BITTER TASTE OF MEDICINE
YOU WILL WATCH HIM WATCH HER AND
YOU WILL DARKEN YOUR MAKEUP
YOU TELL YOURSELF HE IS NOTHING
BUT HE IS LIKE A DEMIGOD
AND YOU DONT THINK SHE DESERVES HIM
STUPID GIRL
DID YOU THINK HE WOULD OVERLOOK HER CHARM
SHE WALKS PAST HIM LIKE A MARTYR AND
SPEAKS TO HIM IN SEDUCTIVE TONES
YOU SEE HIM FOLLOW HER AS THOUGH SHE IS A GODDESS
STUPID GIRL
SHE IS CHARISMATIC AND LOVELY AND
YOU ARE ONLY YOU
WHEN YOU SPEAK TO HIM IT FEELS LIKE AUTUMN
EVERYTHING RED AND WARM
BUT THIS IS THE BEGINNING
NOW IT'S ALL PHLEGMATIC AND
HE IS VERY FLIGHTY
AND YOU TRY NOT TO NOTICE HIS DISCONTENTMENT
HE REMINDS YOU OF A REPTILE
DRY EYES ON YOU BUT
MIND SOMEWHERE ELSE
HE LETS YOU BATHE IN HIS HALF-ATTENTION AND
YOU WILL TRY TO CONVINCE YOURSELF THAT IS ENOUGH
YOU WILL SURVEY HER LIKE A RATTLESNAKE
AND YOU WILL WONDER WHAT SHE IS THAT YOU AREN'T
YOU WILL HATE HER NAME AND HER LONG BLOND HAIR
AND YOU WILL HATE WHO HE IS AROUND HER
STUPID GIRL
YOU THINK HE IS THE SUN AND
YOU WONDER WHY YOU AREN'T BRIGHT ENOUGH
TO GET HIS WAVERING ATTENTION
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