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Part 1

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"Eto na ma! babangon na!! STOP SLAMMING THE DOOR!"

"Anung stahp stahp the dor ka diyan OY BANGON NA! 12:30 NA! "

Ganyan naman mga magulang. 3 hours advanced kung magsabe ng oras. Not reliable, pwe! But don't get me wrong I love my mom, more than my life.

Hindi man totoo yung mga kakyutan ko, iphone, instagram and all that, I'm still greatful for I have a home and a mom that will do anything against her will just to provide things for me. Bakit ko sinasabi ang mga bagay na 'to? Kasi totoo niyan, mahirap lang ako at alam kong hindi naman masama na magilusyon about sa mga bagay bagay. Libre lang naman mangarap sus.

I am Olivia Gherene Alexandra Gabriela Manapat Uy. Haba. Maganda raw mahaba sabi ni mudra para bongga. Sus kung alam lang niya gano ako nahirapan nung gradeschool ako. But people call me "Muy" short for "Manapat-Uy". Some even made fun of it. Calling me names like Muy-muy, aMuy putok or something of that sort. But now they can't cause I am big enough to 'fend for myself.

Now I'm a 15 year old, I'm strong and opinionated. With my chismosa ears and matching bungangera mouth (obvious naman siguro on how I deliver my story pwe) But trust me, I'm no suplada. Bitter lang talaga ako. Bitter ako sa mga tao kase baket sila maganda? ako well, Ugly duckling.

Hindi ko sinisisi ang genes ng magulang ko or ng Tatay 'kong kahit kailan di kami sinipot. It's always like that, stories on an adventure of finding out na mayaman pala ako kasi Tatay ko si ganito ganyan, ugh nakaksuka. Not me, cause I know where my Dad is. Andun 10 houses from ours. Saksakan ng dugyot with his hungry dozen kids with his mistress. I have a dozen siblings. My god pano ko sila tutulungan. Pero they are nothing related from me. Hindi sila anak ni Dad. Sadiyang haliparot lang talaga yung piniling girl ni dad over mom. pwe.

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Back to present.

I'm on school. Waiting for the bell to ring. Damn ang tagal. Ang boring pa kase ang pabebe kong classmate yung nagrereport sa unahan. Nakakasar, pasalamat siya may istura siya.

That girl her name is Julia, she used to be my bestfriend. Pero she chose fame over me. Bakit nga naman hindi. What am I against fame?

Tapos na siya mag-report sa wakas. Pabalik na siya sa upuan niya kaya dadaan siya sa harap ko.

"Oops sorry for that dear." impakta. dinumihan niya yung socks ko on purpose.

Alam niyo yun talaga ang di ko ma-gets, you got everything, the face, the charm, the money, but still why bully? Like what the hell, may saltak ka sa utak te?

I am enrolled in private school. Strive hard ang Mudrakels ko para dito. Kase all my life private school ako and theres this one time na hindi namin kinaya so I tried for public. Sa sobrang hindi ko kinaya everyday akong umiiyak sa Mom ko and tell her to put me back to a private school. May saltak rin ata 'tong Mom ko, hindi na nga kaya pinupush pa ren. Hindi kase mom ko ang nagpapaaral saken back then. It was my great grand parents. Pero dahil nga galing ako sa public school last year, may support na ako for the government plus dun nagwowork yung Mom ko kaya sagot na nila lahat. Tapos si Mudra pasideline sideline para may pangbayad ng house bills.

Achievers and development Academy. High class ang turo diyan. Complete with high class facility and high standard bitches. Mawawala ba naman iyon sa school na mayaman ang may kaya?

Maliban sa maraming impakta dito, mawawala ba ang mga group of boys na tuwing dadaan, wala kang ibang gagawin kundi maihi sa kilig? Hay thank you lord for this good looking human beings.

Pogi nga, chickboy naman. Ganyan yan lagi, what's new?

And then theres me. 5'2 with choppy hairstyle (ako lang kasi ang naggugupit) maputi, but I still don't get why people don't find me attractive? Maybe because lubog ako pag dumidikit ako sa kanila.

*KRIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIING!!*

I was taken aback from my thoughts when the bell rang. Finally gutom na gutom na ako.

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Caffeteria

Damn. I am really having a bad time finding a seat. Also dala-dala ko pa lunch box ko, which is kind of baduy (private school peeps will understand) Pero at the time I don't care cause I am sooooo hungry.

(Eh kung sa CR nalang kaya ako kumain? payapa dun, malamig pa.) I thought. I have weird thoughts. Then may na-spot akong seat na isa lang ang nakaupo.

Lalaki siya.

(oh my god bumilis yung tibok ng puso ko)

Cause I have never seen him, like ever. Siguro transferee? I dunno. He's kind of a loner.

Malayo pa lang, tanaw na tanaw ko na ang itsura niya.

Maputi. Kind of skinny (I still don't know he really has a bad posture). And he has a face to die for. Like he has pink lips at mapupuwing na mga mata na parang ang dami niyang secrets.

Woah.

He's attractive.

Atleast that's what I think.

I suddenly have the urge na lapitan siya.

I don't know what came on to me to do that.

SOMEONE STOP ME OHMYGOD!

But here I'am infront of his table. Siguro naman napansin niya yung presence ko. He looked at me and I melted. I was flushed. Butterflies in my stomach were fluttering so wildly. I was speechless, I forgot what I will say?

Damn what the hell is happening??