This Was Not The Plan | Mattheo Riddle

Part 74

Allison POV

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That's all I could feel when I woke up, except I wasn't with Annabeth in the tower like I was only moments prior. Instead I was in my bedroom at Rosier Estate, and everything was white?

"Hello" I call out waiting to hear a response from Evelyn or Benjamin, but to my luck no one replied. I walk out of my bedroom and down the stairs into the living room before seeing someone I really did not expect to see.

"Mother?" I ask, she's dead there's no way she is alive, she was seen being brutally murdered. She made my life a living hell, she tortured me, made me hate myself in more ways than anyone should.

Yet here she was, standing right in front of me, with a smile on her face. I don't actually think I've ever seen her smile before, not a sincere one at least. Evelyn told me that she used to smile all the time when we were all younger, when life was simple. No light, and no dark.

Oh how that changed quickly.

Her face was the same as I last remembered it to be, her clothes are white instead of the usual black that I grew up knowing. "What are you doing here? where am I? Am I dead?"

She sat down next to the couch, patting the seat next to her for me to follow. Carefully I do, sitting down and crossing my legs while waiting for her answers.

"To be begin with, no you are not dead, but you're not alive either" I look at her in confusion, leading her to continue "We are in a special realm, one that you have the decision to make. I, as you know, am dead. Me and your father died the same fateful death. You my dear, am not dead. You have the choice to decide whether you want to wake up or if you want to follow me to the afterlife"

She turns to look at me, a motherly smile coating her face "So you're telling me that i have the option on going back to my friends, family, and boyfriend. Or going into the afterlife with my parents, and dead friends"

"Yes you do, and to answer your first question. I am here as I am the one who your soul wants to see most. Your soul decides who from the dead will help you make the decision. And trust me your soul was in conflict between me and Jace Novak, but ultimately chose me despite everything I out you through"

She sighs before continuing, "Look I know I was a horrible person in my life, and an even worse mother to you, Jake, Benjamin and Evelyn. And I will always until the end of time feel remorseful about the things I did, the things I never got to share with you and your siblings, even forcing you to think your the reason Evelyn died even when she was alive, basically forcing you to become a deatheater. I know you can never forgive me, but I am so so proud on how you turned out"

"I just don't understand how you could have 4 children and split them up, causing one of them immense trauma so much that I had to go on muggle medication which I might add is weird as you and father are pure bloods. And then you cursed me and Jake just because you felt like it. You were never a mother to me or Jake, you and father were strangers in our own house."

I tell her, she tries to cut in but I continue "Do you know what it's like to be scared to go home because you don't know if your going to be cursed because you forgot to be rude to a house elf, or because you didn't greet a guest properly. Do you know what it's like to be afraid to go places incase people start rumours that get back to your parents and you get forced to starve. Do you know what it's like to be so afraid of the parents that your supposed to look up to, the people who are supposedly role models, the ones who your supposed to share information like when you have a boyfriend, when you failed a test but you don't have to worry about your life because there's always next time"

Her face softens "But Allison dear you must understand that's not the life I wanted you to have. Me and your father may have been in a marriage but let me tell you, it was never one full of love. After having Benjamin and Evelyn me and your father decided we would separate our ways, we were going to end our marriage as it was beyond saving but then I ended up pregnant with a child a baby girl who I refused to terminate. I thought that if I had this child it would save our marriage, the situation would bring me and your father closer. But it didn't, when I was in delivery and two babies came out your father left the delivery room and didn't return for a month. I was basically a single mother with four children, I couldn't deal with it so the house elf's started to raise you when I couldn't."

"Your father used to be a loving man, yes we were both from pure-blood family's but we both loved each other and was able to get married. But the love turned into hate, pure hate, nothing we could do would change how we felt towards the other person. I was still in love with the old him, the man who would hold me for hours when my father would curse me. And the man I feared turned into my husband, and slowly me. I turned into my own worst fear, and to the children I love the most" she says with tears trickling down her face.

I reach my hand forward and grab onto hers "If he was so terrible, why didn't you just leave him?" She looks down, almost ashamed "Your father was and still is a very influential man. He had connections almost everywhere you go, it would be a death mission if I had left him. I wouldn't have been able to bring you or Jake, you two would have been raised in a worse condition then you were. I couldn't just leave you two there and never return for my own sanity, I would of preferred if you and your brother ran away and never came back, atleast then I know you two would of been safe"

"You only stayed for me and Jake? But still decided to torture us? No you didn't stay for us you stayed for yourself, you stayed because you wanted to live not because you wanted to protect me and Jake"

She got up and moved towards the window "If I had another chance of life I would make everything I did better, I would of mended my relationship with all my children, I would of left your father, I would help the order, I would protect everyone I love. But I don't get another chance, you do. And I want you to take the chance and live your life to the fullest. I want you to do all the things I couldn't with my own children, I want you to love your children, I want you to understand how to raise your children, I want you to be the best mother in the world. Something I failed at"

I stand up, moving towards her before taking a look outside which was empty "I will go back if you answer my last question"

She nods

"Were you able to see all the terrible stuff that's happened on earth while you're up here?"

She nods again "yes, I could see all the terrible stuff. I saw what happened to you, I saw all the war, I saw the innocent children that died, Evelyn's boyfriends death, I saw everything"

I nod "are you actually sorry for everything that happened?"

"Sometimes my answer to that is no, but then I remember everything that I put you through and I have no choice but to feel sorry for what happened"

I bring her into a hug, god that sounds weird for me to even think about doing. Before letting go "I'm ready to go back"

"I love you Allison, and tell your siblings I love them as well" she says before I nod.

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A/N - ok so I know that I've taken ages to put this out, and it's very short but I have exam season coming up and I've had writers block so I haven't been very productive. But I can say Part two of this will be coming out this month, probably around Easter.

The next chapter is going to be like the rest of the story, and from then on it's going to be main life events in Alison's life. If you have any recommendations just leave them here and I probably will write a chapter on that.

Until next time,

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