The Enemy

Chapter Nineteen

~Samora~

It's been about a month since I've got the call from Jamil. I've tried to figure out what I'm going to do and even though I thought I would ultimately pick Ana in any and every scenario, I just don't think I can give him the satisfaction of choosing for me. I've spent three days with Matteo this past week and he's just been the sweetest. He's so gentle yet rough by nature. I've found myself falling more and more in love with him. He taught Ana how to drive and helped her pass her permit test. Her birthday is in two days and he thought it would be a good idea to buy her a car. She's turning seventeen and I've decided to take his advice on giving her a little more freedom and independence. Since we've been together Ana and I typically spend our birthdays together since they're a week apart but she's getting older and I think it would be a good idea for her to celebrate her day on her own. That way it could be all about her. We usually take a trip but for the first time in a long time she has friends and she's never had one of those girly sleepovers that they do in the movies. She's always tried to hide how much she longed to do one of those and I wouldn't be as successful as I am if I couldn't see pass that. Not to mention I would be a horrible sister if I didn't know better. For as long as I could remember I've wanted my sister to have a normal life. Complete with all of those girly movie things she's secretly fantizied about. And for the first time I have the opportunity to give her everything she's always wanted. We could have freedom. Happiness. Normalcy. But at what cost?

Matteo's life. His trust. His love. His warmth.

For the past month I've tried finding any evidence that he's in the Mafia. Much less the fucking boss. But I haven't found anything. Not a single crumb. None of my underground contacts has ever even heard of him. Literally no one knows whose the boss. They've never seen him. No one knows his name. Nothing. It's like he's a ghost. Like he doesn't even exist. But people say the same about me. And I definitely exist I just don't want to be found and for good reason. But Matteo doesn't behave as someone who hiding and if he is who Jamil says he is then he has no reason too. So why is it that I can't find him? There isn't even a way to get in contact with him. If not him directly then at least someone who knows him. This whole quest for evidence has proven to be more of a headache then anything. I'm beginning to think my father just wants me to kill him because he knows I'm happy. Leave it up to the devil to crush any hopes of happiness. I've even tried searching him up on Google I came up with absolutely nothing, but he's not from here so I didn't really expect to find anything. The only thing I've found that raised an eyebrow was the fact that the club he owns isn't in his name. But that could just be because he said he's in the states illegally. I guess the other thing could be when I found him on the brink of death. He had an explanation for that of course and I had no reason to doubt him. I still find no reason to attribute that one incident  to him being in the Mafia. I've never been so confused and stuck in my life. I have no idea what I should do. I've searched police records. I tried to search medical records. I have come up with nothing. Absolutely nothing. I don't know what I want more. For it to be true or false. I guess it doesn't make much of a difference. Either way in the end I just may have to kill him.

That is if I want to save my sister.

"Hey Mo-Mo the big cousin asked me to come pick you up" Andino, Matteo's little cousin broke me away from my thoughts. I met Andy about a week ago. He's so cute and annoying at the same time. He makes up for it by being extremely funny. I don't think I've ever laughed as much as I do when he's around. He's like the little brother I never asked for but secretly always wanted. When he heard Ana call me that stupid name he took it upon himself to make it his business to use it. Unintentionally I found myself having a soft spot for him so I don't mind it to much. Like Ana he has this innocence about him that I find comforting. Like it doesn't matter what happens in the world at least there are some people who won't let it change them. Sometimes I really wish I had that quality. "What's wrong?" He sits on my bed next to me and puts his hand on my shoulder. I didn't even realize I was crying. When Matteo formally introduced me to Andy and Nico we all just kind of clicked and for the first time I felt like I finally belonged somewhere. Like I could have a family outside of just Ana. Me and Mario already had some kind of friendship from the club but I've had the chance to see a different side of him. I don't want to have to betray them. I don't want to go back to being alone. I'll always have Ana but one day she'll grow up and have a life of her own. I can't follow her and shadow her for the rest of my life. When do I get to have something that I want? When do I get to be happy? Just the thought alone has me balling my eyes out. Andy pulls me into him and hugs me tight. I've been really emotional lately and sick as hell. I already know why I just haven't had the time to process it.