Keep Your Head Up *Ethan Dolan*

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~ Raina ~ 

        I somehow pull myself out of bed the next morning to go to that hell hole known as school. I get ready, pulling on a pair of leggings and an oversized hoodie that will cover up all my cuts, and a pair of black Vans. Then I brush my teeth and hair and grab my backpack and phone and head downstairs to the kitchen. I grab something to eat- a granola bar and a milk- then head out the front door, locking up behind me. I then start the twenty minute walk to school.
When I get there, of course the hate starts. People start whispering things at me and talking shit about me to my face. I speed walk to my locker and try to avoid eye contact with anyone. Once I get to my locker I quickly pull the stuff out that I need and then I shut it quickly and practically run off to my first period class.
In the doorway to my first period class, stands one of the "hottest" popular guys at this school. No matter how cute everyone else thinks he is, I refuse to find him attractive in anyway. All popular guys are assholes so I'm not even gonna bother becoming attached to that guy.
"Excuse me." I squeak out, trying to walk around him.
He smiles a genuine smile at me. "Oh, sorry." Then he moves out of the doorway.
I roll my eyes and walk past him into the classroom and take a seat in my usual spot in the back corner.
I hate school with a passion and I honestly would rather not be here at all but you know how that goes.....
Each class of mine drags on and by the time lunch comes along, I already wanna die. Some people can be so rude and I hate that. People in every one of my classes have picked on me, called me names and bullied me at some point during the class period and it honestly makes me just want to go cry in a corner somewhere.
At lunch time, I sneak outside and sit in the middle of the school's soccer field just thinking about life and what my purpose even is here on this earth. I'm pretty sure I cry a bit too but I'm not sure. I can't tell.
Suddenly I feel a presence coming up behind me and my heart begins to beat faster as I think that someone is coming out here to beat me up or whatever.
"Hey. What are you doing out here all alone?" The voice asks. I turn around and it ends up being that popular guy who stood in the doorway to my first period class. I turn back around. "No answer?"
I shake my head.
"Why is a pretty girl like you out here all alone during lunch?" He questions standing right next to me. He looks down at me. "Do you care if I sit here?"
I shake my head, still refusing to talk to him because I'm scared of what he's gonna do to me. Most popular people in his group of friends want to beat me up or call me names and I honestly can't take it anymore.
He sits down next to me and crosses his legs, sitting there crisscross applesauce. "So, why won't you talk to me?"
I just sit there.
"I know you're not deaf or mute because you talked to me earlier. Why won't you talk to me now?"
I shrug.
"What's wrong?" He asks looking right at me. He leans forward and tries to wipe a tear off my cheek but I flinch away from his touch.
I continue to sit there, still not talking to him and wipe my own tears away.
"Why were you crying? And why are you scared to let me touch your face?" He asks, looking concerned. He's probably not concerned. He's probably faking it. It honestly wouldn't surprise me. No one honestly cares about me. I mean, all my friends left me when they discovered how depressed I was. My own parents don't care about me. That's plain to see, they're never around and they would never know if something happened to me. Hell, I practically have raised myself the last two years of my life because once I started to feel a bit iffy they disappeared and started leaving me alone a lot more. What kind of parents do that to their child?
He touches my arm and I jump, leaving my thoughts. "Ssh. It's gonna be okay. I'm not gonna hurt you. Why are you so scared of me?"
I still don't say anything.
"Please just talk to me. I wanna talk to you and see if you're okay."
I shrug.
"Please? At least let me know your name."
"Adraina." I say quietly.
"What was that?" He asks scooting closer so he can hear me better.
"My name is Adraina. But I prefer to go by Raina." I say, a little louder than before but still really quietly.
"Well hi Raina. I'm Ethan." He smiles at me a bit.

I sit there and stare at him for a moment. He honestly couldn't care about me. Right? I mean he's just like everyone else, they act like they give a fuck about me but they sure as hell don't.

A/N RAINA AND ETHAN HAVE FINALLY MET! what do you think will happen between them???? :) Do you think she'll continue to give him the cold shoulder for a while or do you think she'll let him in and open up to him and let him fix her broken self?

I WANNA KNOW WHAT YOU GUYS THINK SHOULD HAPPEN :) thanks

-GraysonBaeDolan <3