A Pure Soul

39.

Yeongsoo took the hand of the other. "What exactly do you want me to do?"

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POV. Jimin

 It's been one and a half week since the accident at the school and right now I stood in front of our couches, on which the others sat. I was tired of only seeing this mansion and the garden, especially when my hyungs are out for work, here is nothing to do! I wanted to finally be able to go to school again, I can just imagine the amount of work, that will be waiting for me, as soon as I get back. I had to somehow convince them to let me finally go back to school, which sounds easier than it actually is... They are once again in their overprotective big brother phase! I actually already tried multiple times the past week, to convince them to let me go back to school, but as you can see these attempts were unsuccessful.

 "Oh come on, its nearly been two weeks!" I begged my stubborn hyungs. "And we'll gladly make those two weeks full." Replied Yoongi "You know exactly that I didn't mean it like that!" "And you'll know exactly that we told you, you can go back to school after your bruises have completely healed." "They are still visible, yes... BUT as long as it doesn't hurt I think you can call it healed." I argued, and I felt the frustration grow inside of me, and all they did were either ignoring my beggings or smiling stupidly at me as if I was a little throwing a tantrum, which I am obviously not.

"Come on ChimChim, sit down. We'll watch a movie." Namjoon called me over, patting the empty spot on the sofa next to him. 'Is he for real?' I finally snapped a little, the frustration, of them acting as if I am a child and them taking decisions for me, got finally the better of me. "Why are you always like that!" I screamed, you could hear the frustration in voice. They all were suddenly able to focus on me speaking, you could easily see the suprised expressions in their face; they probably didn't think, I was even able to raise my voice. 

"I asked you for the past week, to let me go back to school and all you did was ignoring my request and taking decisions for me!" They were still pretty much overwhelmed by my sudden outburst, Namjoon was the first, who wanted to say something, but I didn't let him. "And don't counter me, with you just wanting to protect me! I get that and I am really thankful for you guys caring for my well-being, you've already done more for me in this short period than anyone has ever done for me! But it doesn't mean you can keep me locked up in here! I just finally want a normal life..." My eyes had began to water midway through my monologue and with my finishing sentence the first tears of frustration broke free.

Now I stood before my hyungs, crying like a child. It is no wonder they always treat me like one if this is how I behave I felt foolish like a complete idiot and decided I needed to leave. I ran past them, up towards my room ignoring the others calling after me.

Just as I locked the door behind me, I felt overwhelmed by my own emotions. I was overwhelmed by them because they were emotions I've kept deep inside of me for a long time, my outburst was the first I had in many years, I understood at a very young age, that in order to survive my fathers wrath, I had to be quiet and invisible, so I became exactly that. 

I slid down my door and started to cry heavily, it wasn't out of sadness, but out of exhaustion and I had to admit it was a relief, it felt like a heavy package was taken off my back and after some time my eyelids got heavier and I made my way towards my bed, and after my body hits my matress I almost immediately fall into a refreshing slumber.

It was after only half an hour of sleep that I awoke once again, I awoke because of knocking coming from the other side of my door. "Yes?" I yawned "Jimin-ah it's me, please open the door. I want to talk to you!" Jin's familiar voice answered me.