an: this chapter is an emotional rollercoaster and its long as fuck (sorry if y'all don't like long chapters.) it covers sexual assault (unwanted touching and kissing) either way do not read if you are sensitive to this. it gets slightly better at the end?
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Leaning against Sasha's front door, you sighed as you felt the warmth embrace your body. You rubbed your eyes vigorously to get rid of your tear-filled eyes before removing your flip-flops. Taking countless inhales and exhales, you wanted the Xanax pills desperately in your mouth to soothe your panicked heart.
"Okay," you whispered under your breath opening the living room door and preparing yourself mentally for the questions you were about to be bombarded with.
As usual, all eyes were on you as you forced a neutral expression pretending as if nothing happened. You went and sat on the cushion you once sat on, eyeing the empty one that was next to you, Eren's imprint still carved by it you stared at the girls who began smoking without you.
For some reason, it felt like they were talking about. In a way that didn't involve you and Eren. The atmosphere in the room felt sharp and you felt unwanted.
Hitch handed you the already lit joint. "So... what happened?" Hitch asked the question everyone had in their mind as stated at you intently waiting for your answer.
Usually, you were quick at making excuses but today, your mind went blank.
"Eren asked me on a date," was the excuse you could only make up. And somehow it was the only one that made sense and was believable.
A huge gasp emitted from Sasha's lips, you ignored her expected reaction and kept your eyes on Annie and Mikasa who shared a look. You couldn't quite place your finger on what it was about but you were ready to deal with what was about to come.
"Eren asking you on a date?" Hitch repeated.
"Do men even do these things face to face? You must be special," Hitch said as you took your last two puffs from the joint and handed it back to her.
"The conversation outside looked long, how did he ask you out," Mikasa asked almost as if she believed you and didn't at the same time.
You were tired of the questions and the sceptical gazes. You longingly took a pull from the joint, already exhaling as the smoke curled into the hazy atmosphere. You were getting the hang of this.
"He asked me when I was free, and then if I wanted to hang out. First, he didn't admit that it was a date but finally said that it was. Then we got to know each other briefly." You simply said before unlocking your phone with your Face ID. You weren't in the mood to speak or further explain yourself to anybody.
It fell silent in the room as you all silently smoked, the sound of TikTok and Instagram reels playing was the only thing that could be heard. Taking your last inhale already feeling the highness getting to you, you returned the almost finished joint to Hitch letting her know that she could smoke the rest.
