I Chose And Can't Lose

My end is something I can chose, 

I can't lose 

All I could hear was people laughing, 

all I could see was people pointing

Everyone of them were everywhere, 

just standing there 

And would do nothing, 

except staring

All does mean things they said, 

that made me afraid 

Of them but they would pretend, 

as if nothing had ever happened

Now im shy, 

because of all those days that I would cry 

Im to shy to do what I used to love, 

like acting was something precious to me that I love

The day I knew,  

I had no value 

Was when,  

they raised their hand

If they would want me dead,  

they said,  

even now it still stays in my head

Im in depression,  

its a disease like starvation 

Even if the sun is bright,  

it doesnt change anything right

When they said those things, 

they think that its something 

That I forgive,  

but the thruth is that now the only thing I want is my suicide